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GRRRRR - foiled by the pressure again : (

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I know I just wrote yesterday about my enormous willpower...and everyone was so sweet to support me. I was on a roll yesterday, but today was different. I totally blew my eating plan and binged like I haven't in a long time. Between the hours of 4 pm and 5 pm I ate the following:

2 Jolly Pirate cinnamon apple doughnuts
3 spicy black bean burger patties
a bowl of Fiber One raisin bran clusters
2 whole wheat english muffins with peanut butter
and finally, about 20 vanilla wafers

Ugghh, I feel sick. I'm VERY disappointed in myself. The worst part is that since I didn't have any really good junk food in the house, I actually got up, got into my car, and drove all the way to Jolly Pirate which is about 10 miles away. At any point during that trip I could have stopped myself, but I didn't. Then as usual, after I scarfed down both doughnuts in the car, I got home feeling like I totally blew it and binged on everything I had in the pantry.

I know how stressed I have been this week...I should have created a game plan to deal with it.

Damn! My binge-free streak is over.

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  • WADEFREEMAN
    Process.....get back on it!! It's soo great to have support here!!!
    3400 days ago
  • CHANGINGSAM
    Believe me when I say I know exactly where you are coming from. My week has been one from hell, and I swear when I'm stressed, I could eat anything and everything.

    However, we've come too far to let this one week hold us back. Stress sucks. We have to get up and dust off.

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    3401 days ago
  • FITNESSMONSTER8
    We have all been right where you are now. Don't let it bring you down, today is a new day. Let's make it great!!! emoticon
    3401 days ago
  • 7356WILMA
    Just remember this is only one step back, compared to the two steps forward that you have been taking. Tomorrow's a new day.
    3401 days ago
  • JODIEST
    Ooooh, and I just remembered something my mentor used to tell me when I was at a point that i was feeling really bad about something and it always made me feel good.

    "This isn't the end of your story, this is just a page somewhere in the middle."
    3401 days ago
  • JODIEST
    I try to look at a day, like the one you had today, as a precious opportunity. I try to examine it, pick it apart. What happened? What could I have done differently? What do I need to do differently next time? How do I treat myself with tenderness because I don't deserve to be beat up?

    There is important information in this, glean it, tuck it in your pocket and keep on walking.
    3401 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/22/2012 9:20:41 PM
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    From one emotional eater to another.....I totally understand the frustration. It has nothing to do with weight or what the scale may say tomorrow......it's the desire to be free of turning to food for comfort/security/understanding/etc/
    etc/etc. Old habits that have developed over the years for one reason or another. I'm right there with you. You read my blog about the birthday party feasts at work.....same thing you did today only I didn't have to drive......thing is...I WOULD HAVE TOO!!! We just want to be rid of those emotional ties. Deep down, I believe someday we will. So just like my blog said today "don't ever give up". I know you aren't going to, but still....the saying just sparks us that much more and makes us stronger and more determined to beat this emotional eating thing. I'm proud of you Naima and you are still a friend I look to for daily inspiration (well, except for them collard green things).
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    3401 days ago
  • LITTLEBO
    So you will just start a new streak. I have been there, believe me. Ya just gotta keep goin. Next time you are stressed, you WILL have a game plan (hot baths with lavender is my go-to). And where did we come up with the "totally blew it" thinking. I will never understand where I got that from. Just know your SparkFriends are with you.
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    3401 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11433668
    See the post on your web page...didnt know you wrote a blog, so I posted my thoughts/comments there. :) However--just wanted to add...dont think that the last 3 weeks 'dont count' now, because you 'blew' it today. Today you just made some bad choices...big deal. Get over it and get back on track....
    3401 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/22/2012 6:56:21 PM
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