The scale has not shown my heart
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
We have a biggest loser challenge at work. It's started at the beginning of the year. THe first couple of weeks I only lost a few lb s here and there. I'm a big girl and need to lose a minimum of 75 lbs, just to get to normal fat. I expected better numbers than that. Other people have been losing 4-5 lbs every week. I've been tracking my food most days. I only have 1.5 cheat meals a week. I have a bodybugg and know I'm still eating under my calorie burn . I'm not saying that I've been perfect, but I should see some results. I'm not.
So I upped my workouts. I did a 5K at my best time, although still not that fast. I ended up gaining 4 lbs last week. Its so disappointing. I can't make the scale behave the way I want. It doesnt reflect how hard this journey is for it. It doesn't show how much time, effort and work I put into it. I'm always thinking about food/working out/healthy choices. It's like none of it matters because I have not gotten any results.
I know i need to focus on something else, but my shape/body is still not coming together the way I want. I know i"m not doing this to be a certain size or number, but it would be great validation that all of this was for something.
Right now it's hard to stay focused on why I do this.