Today was stressful...but I'm not going to turn to food!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Today I had a second interview for a job I really, really want. I was so excited and nervous about it that it was hard to sleep last night. This morning I was so nervous I actually threw up : ( (Fortunately I felt better afterward.)
The interview only lasted about 20 minutes. I've always thought that short interviews are not a good sign. I felt like I answered the questions well, and tried to smile and be friendly, but I didn't get any indication that the managers liked what I said. They had their poker faces on. I left the interview disappointed. (They said they will be making a decision by the end of this week, so at least I should know something soon.)
There's an Arby's right around the corner from my house. Arby's beef n' cheddar sandwiches with curly fries are a weakness of mine. I pulled into the parking lot and just sat there thinking. At first, I thought about how delicious the first bites of the beef n' cheddar would taste. I thought about how I deserved a reward for the stress I've been going through. Then I thought about how I would have to go into the restaurant to eat it there so my fiance wouldn't smell it in the car or in the house and find out that I ate so bad. Then I thought about how I made the commitment to a plant-based eating plan with him. I thought about that movie, "Forks Over Knives," and how bad fast food is for me. I thought about how fast food always causes me to binge eat. I thought about how bingeing me feel sick, guilty, and terrible about myself. Then I thought about how I wasn't even hungry! I thought about the delicious homemade lentil/vegetable soup waiting for me at home. I slowly pulled out of the Arby's parking space and zoomed out of there!
It felt so good to actually stop my compulsive eating. For the first time in a long time, I feel proud of myself. I am NOT going to let a stressful day cause me to binge eat on bad food!
Yummy lentil/vegetable soup:
The picture doesn't show how good this stuff smells and tastes...it's awesome!