Today was stressful...but I'm not going to turn to food!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Today I had a second interview for a job I really, really want. I was so excited and nervous about it that it was hard to sleep last night. This morning I was so nervous I actually threw up : ( (Fortunately I felt better afterward.)

The interview only lasted about 20 minutes. I've always thought that short interviews are not a good sign. I felt like I answered the questions well, and tried to smile and be friendly, but I didn't get any indication that the managers liked what I said. They had their poker faces on. I left the interview disappointed. (They said they will be making a decision by the end of this week, so at least I should know something soon.)

There's an Arby's right around the corner from my house. Arby's beef n' cheddar sandwiches with curly fries are a weakness of mine. I pulled into the parking lot and just sat there thinking. At first, I thought about how delicious the first bites of the beef n' cheddar would taste. I thought about how I deserved a reward for the stress I've been going through. Then I thought about how I would have to go into the restaurant to eat it there so my fiance wouldn't smell it in the car or in the house and find out that I ate so bad. Then I thought about how I made the commitment to a plant-based eating plan with him. I thought about that movie, "Forks Over Knives," and how bad fast food is for me. I thought about how fast food always causes me to binge eat. I thought about how bingeing me feel sick, guilty, and terrible about myself. Then I thought about how I wasn't even hungry! I thought about the delicious homemade lentil/vegetable soup waiting for me at home. I slowly pulled out of the Arby's parking space and zoomed out of there!

It felt so good to actually stop my compulsive eating. For the first time in a long time, I feel proud of myself. I am NOT going to let a stressful day cause me to binge eat on bad food!


Yummy lentil/vegetable soup:

The picture doesn't show how good this stuff smells and's awesome!
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    emoticon the soup looks great! I needed to read this post as I enter into the weekend! Make it a good one
    3400 days ago
    Way to go!!! I know how easy it is to turn to food after a tough day. emoticon
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    It's tough when we think, "I deserve this" and the reward is food. Good for you talking and thinking yourself through that. I wish you well with the job, and be proud that you followed good judgement! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    WOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO you did the exact thing you should have: You paused. You thought about the feelings BEHIND the food. You paused some more. You allowed yourself the power to CHOOSE. AFter all, we are NOT powerless and we DO have a choice.
    Very well done, Naima. :)
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    I'm so proud of how you listened to your inner voice and reasoned your way out of an emotional eating situation. You have every right to be proud of yourself!!! You will have to tell your handsome man the story and I bet you'll get a big hug out of him. Your lentil soup looks delicious. I like soups like that. You've accomplished alot today Naima. And about the job..... everything happens for a reason....just believe.
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    3402 days ago
    You did SO GREAT! Amazing in fact with being in the parking lot of a fast food joint and then leaving for healthier food at home. WOW!!
    Best wishes with the job too!

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