Saturday, February 18, 2012
So today I went to a Partylite candle party with my mom. Little did I know that the candle company now sells dips and yummy stuff. So my friend had dips with Ritz crackers and potato chips with ridges (and baby carrots). Yum! And chocolate cake cut into hearts with a bunch of frosting. And soda. It all looked so good! But I ate my healthy lunch just before I left for the party and brought my own water to drink. I did eat two carrots with a little dip on each just to try the dips without feeling like I was missing out. But then they served the cake. But I turned it down. But then they asked me again... "Are you sure you don't want cake?" I wanted to scream "YES, GIVE ME THE CAKE!" But I said, "No, I'm sure." Then they said the could cut the pretty little heart in two for me. That was a fitting image as my heart felt like it was breaking in two for the cake. But I said, "No, I'm okay." For some reason I couldn't bring myself to tell them I'm on a diet or anything. Being the second "skinniest" girl in the room it felt like I'd be insulting them if I said it. I have to admit I was kind of insulted by the skinniest girl in the room when she was bragging about how her 10 year old daughter fits into her size zero pants. Really... thats what you want to talk about when the next smallest woman in the room wears a size 16?! We coulda squashed her! To be honest I don't ever want to fit into a size zero but I still didn't feel like mentioning that I'm on a diet in front of her. So I also didn't tell them that I've lost weight. For some reason I felt guilty about it there. But I've earned it!
Anyway, I just went off on a wild tangent. So I didn't have the chocolate cake and my mom praised me quietly for it. Then when I got home I had a FiberOne Brownie & felt better. I'm not going to completely torture myself!