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I need smaller 'big girl' panties!!!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

So, I had a moment today... a split second where I could clearly recognise that my life had shifted.

Before that, a little background story...

We live one mile, as the crow flies, from The Divine Miss O's elementary school.

It takes us 15 minutes to get there due to traffic, two school zones, and because we can't drive 'as the crow flies'.

We drive every day.

We drive partly because my dear girl isn't up early enough (I don't wake her up as she has issues getting enough sleep) or ready quickly enough to leave time enough to walk... in fact, she is often late as it is (for those of you who think I'm derelict in my responsibility to teach her a sense of responsibility... we're working on being on time, but I refuse to start our day fighting about anything... my higher priority is that she get to school happy to be there, feeling good about herself, knowing how loved she is, and looking forward to coming home at the end of the day... I was never so blessed, and it affects me to this day, as you can see).

More to the point, we drive every day because as recently as five months ago (I haven't really tested it since), I didn't have the strength or the energy to walk the two miles total there and back (we walked her to school the first day of the school year and it did me in for the rest of the day).... So, under the guise of doing something good for my daughter, I've clung to my position that driving better suits our needs for now.

This morning The Divine Miss O and I walked out of the house to discover the car wouldn't start. First bell was going to go in less than five minutes (so even driving she would be at least 5 minutes late). D@mn!!! I started to turn on my heel to head back into the house to call my husband to come home and boost the car... and it's like time suddenly stopped...

In rapid succession several observations crossed my mind like lightening:
* Bloody stupid car (this is not the first - or fifth - time the car has done this... we've had on-going issues with both our vehicles for months now).
* I wasn't as upset as I might have been a few weeks ago.
* Even if it took us half an hour to walk that one mile, it would still take longer to go back in the house, phone my husband, and him to get home to boost the car so we could THEN drive.
* I felt physically capable of CHOICE.
* I felt challenged... and I liked it!

A split second had passed... I started to grin and, almost giddy, I turned to Miss O and declared, "Come on! We're walking!"

Shouldering her backpack, I burst out laughing... her eyes had widened, and she looked at me uncertainly (Mom doesn't make such declarations)... and then grinning widely, she took my offered hand and trotted briskly and gleefully beside me. It was ON! We were going to get there as close to second bell as we could manage.

First bell rang about a minute into walking.... yeah, we heard it clearly... that's how close we live... so we knew we had five minutes to the final bell.

I was now doubly determined. If we can hear that darn bell, we can do this. I'm pulling my girl along (she's not used to me moving this quickly) chattering all the way.

The second and final bell rang as we got within 50 feet of the doors... so we SPRINTED!

We shared hugs, kisses, admonishments to have a good day and make good choices, and I turned around and headed home. Twenty minutes after leaving the house, I was back removing my shoes.

Now, here's that moment to which I initially alluded... with core engaged, arms pumping, breathing and speaking normally, NOT sweating profusely...

I walked 2 consecutive 10-minute miles!

I didn't have to think about it. I didn't have to plan for it. I wasn't afraid to do/try it. I took a potentially stressful moment in stride, literally, LOL!

...Oh... and my panties fell off inside my jeans, LOL! Never in my lifetime has such a thing happened! Furthermore, the only thing keeping my jeans up were my pumping glutes!

This is how I realized that I now need *smaller* 'big girl' panties... not just because my actual panties fell off, but because I realize feeling healthier and stronger has increased my sense of competency in the world. I haven't so easily 'rolled with the punches' in a very long time. Apparently drama/stress, like muscle, takes up less room in my life when I feel empowered to deal with it... and physical strength and vitality are empowering emotionally. It requires less energy and effort on my part (smaller 'big girl' panties) to roll with the punches and rise to the daily challenges of life when I feel physically strong and vital.

I suppose, I knew this before this morning.

I suppose I've even lived the truth of it at other times in my life.

Yet, this truth, and the knowledge that I can live it NOW (after the struggle, trials and tribulations it took to get back here) has never been sweeter!

So, I'm sharing a few of my favourite 'big girl' panties in honour of the occasion:

So, go try on a smaller pair of 'big girl' panties for yourself.... you might be surprised to see what actually fits... Oh... and get a pair of shoes to go with... I want these:

(aren't they GREAT?!)

Now it's 3:00 pm and I've got to go do those two miles again!

(with smaller panties and a belt, LOL)...

May today and every day bring to you a ridiculous abundance of whatever you need. May all your concerns, struggles, anxieties and fears fall like ashes as you rise on eagle's wings, SOARING above all that would hinder you along this tremendous adventure of being and becoming all you are created to be. May the grace of God simply "overtake" you moment by moment. May the joy and victory of the risen Lord be yours in a very personal way... may you always be overwhelmed by the grace of God, rather than by the cares of life!

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}


...Because YOU can "do it afraid and watch fear be annihilated!" BUFFEDSTUFF---



'BEFORE' Pictures (May 31, 2009 - September, 2011) & Continuing PROGRESS (February 2012)!

(I'm now keeping these right under my nose... in addition to being part of every blog I post, they are printed off and taped to my bedroom mirror)

Measurements, Musings & Motivation to MOVE!

(UPDATED: February, 2012)

I've Reached My Goal Weight!!!!!!!

NOTE: My weight tracker is NOT a truthful representation of my weight. Instead, I am using it as a tool to help me visualize my goal as though it's already been achieved!
(Tom Venuto)

UNTIL. (My 'Just Do It' blog)

DONE Girl Love...

(the footsteps into which I place my own feet)

Words CAN Be Enough... page 2


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Riding the Roller Coaster

More questions than answers... yet again...

The Divine Miss O: UPDATE... of sorts.

I need smaller 'big girl' panties!!!

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