Wednesday, February 15, 2012
I've lost nearly 10 pounds since I started weight watchers on January 17th. That's a big deal for me, especially since my mindset has been "I don't loose weight, I just gain it". Now, its not really 'showing'. I still have my gigantic gut. I still have a double (triple?) chin, and flab under my arms, and chunky thighs. I look as big as ever.
However, I have noticed some very important things that are more important than sheer size. First off, I have more energy (not this morning, but in general). I can walk longer, farther, and faster. Instead of looking at hills as insurmountable obstacles to be avoided, I just walk them. Sure it takes more effort and I'm still all puffy when I get to the top, but I don't need to slow down or stop or avoid them altogether. Instead of looking for ways to cut my walk short, I'm looking for ways to make it longer and more interesting. My legs feel stronger - although sometimes after a long walk they are a bit rubbery and wobbly still - and my stride is longer and more confident. I will never be a speed walker, and I will never, ever be a runner (I lack one very important ingredient - the desire). But I feel like a walker again, someone who is not intimidated by the idea of walking to Tim Horton's on the corner, or to Zehrs, or to Shopper's. I want to explore the park behind my house right now, not 'some day'.
Secondly, my clothes are fitting better. They're not hanging off me, but shirts are running smoother over my gut, my coat doesn't bind, my pants are more comfortable around my waist, and my boots zip close at the top without any effort. Its small, but I notice it.
So there you go. You can't tell by looking at me, but what I'm doing is working.