Can someone come & kick my butt?
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Oh, I'm doing the slow & steady thing just fine... I want more. Why can't I muster more? Every day I enjoy a little indulgence so I don't feel deprived and don't lose my mind. It's necessary. Or is it? *sigh* Well, maybe if my "little indulgence" wasn't 400 calories, it wouldn't be an issue. Yesterday was a really weird but really good day. Extremely strange - I wasn't hungry. I ate breakfast. I did not have the opportunity to eat lunch so enjoyed the last 2 delicious cookies (now they're gone-yeah!) while I made a healthy dinner of flounder, pierogies & green beans. And then I had a gin & tonic w/ my Valentine. So I figure between the cookies & the drink, there was about 400 or more empty calories. Not an ideal day but I did end within my ranges. ((The cookies were made with Kashi Go Lean crunch instead of rice crispies. Mmmm!!))
I have to wonder where I'd be if I were more strict with my diet. No cheating. Would I weigh less or would I have given up? Knowing me, probably the latter. I've been so good about exercising but I can't seem to perfect my eating. I don't think it needs to be perfect all the time ~ just more often than not. I dunno. I'm rambling because I'm frustrated.
I decided to mix up my exercise. Instead of Zumba 5 times a week, I'm going to see what happens doing it 3 times a week + 2 days of strength training. Yesterday was the first day & this morning every muscle in my body (except my abs) is screaming.
So far this year, I've lost an average of a pound a week. I have 15 pounds to lose in 14 weeks to reach my goal of 140 pounds by June 1st. It's so doable but I'm doubting myself. Twice I have moved my end goal date because I passed it. I really don't want to do it again.... but I'm tired. My spark is petering out. The journey to my destination is getting too long & I feel like I'll never arrive. Maybe I should have taken more pictures to look back at to keep me motivated but I'm always behind the camera. I've got tons of pics of the kids, the animals & outings but not me. Oh well. There ya have it.