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Sunday, February 12, 2012

My weight today is 199!

For some that might be an outrageously high number, a wake up call. For me, it is the best number I have seen yet!

I don't remember exactly when I last weighed under 200 pounds, but I know I was in elementary school, 4th or 5th grade probably. I will dig out my old report cards at some point and see. They used to weigh us each grading period and it was written on the back of the card. I remember my mom had written fictitious, lower weights over the ones more than 200. My grades were always fabulous and I can only imagine the combination of pride over that and the desire to share my academic success with family and co-workers mixed with the shame my weight must have caused her. The fear the person looking at my report card would turn it over and see the shameful numbers on the back. I wonder, did she look at any of that as HER shame....or was it mine alone? I certainly have felt ashamed of my weight most of my life.

I'm glad I'm coming to terms with that now. I have told more people my actual weight, only close friends, and only when it's relevant.

I've gotten no shameful looks or remarks as I approached 199, only people who are amazed that I have com from over 300 to where I am now. I no longer feel shame over my weight, or over any part of me.

Today, I am PROUD!
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    Never compare yourself to others. Desiderado
    2290 days ago
  • NCSUE0514
    Great work - and don't belittle your accomplishment. There's nothing little about being littler!!!
    2290 days ago
    You should be PROUD. Welcome to the 100s!!!!!!!!!

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    2290 days ago
    What a truly great accomplishment. You are an inspiration to me. I am so looking forward to seeing the other side of 200! I guess only those of us who have lived in the obese zone really know how great 199 looks and feels. Way to go.
    2290 days ago
  • SUSANK16
    Congratulations. I hope you will focus on your success for you and let go of other's thoughts. I realize that this can be difficult to do but it can be done. You have accomplished something for yourself, burn the old report cards, fovgive your mother, and walk with your head high. Congratulations you deserve to feel proud of yourself no matter what size you are.
    2290 days ago
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