Making Decisions For The Person I WANT To Be, Not Who I Am Now. Eventually, We'll Be The SAME Perso
Thursday, February 09, 2012
I walk into our work kitchen this morning to heat up my egg breakfast and what do I find but a dozen donuts and 6 Hardees sausage, egg, & cheese biscuits. The class that rented our Community Room today had already had their breakfast, and the class facilitator came in and said, "oh HI! Take whatever you want!" I was thinking and thinking and thinking. Whirling justifications in my head LIKE I ALWAYS DO. Then I just said, "thanks, but I brought my breakfast with me!" The reason goals won out over pleasure center this time?
I thought about the person I want to be. The person who has achieved her goals and is living the lifestyle I want to live. I've been thinking a lot about her lately. How does she eat? Cleanly and healthily? When and how often does she work out? Is she a procrastinator? Does she save money? Is she there for friends and family?
Here's the thing. If I have this vision in my head of the person I want to be, and routinely make goals to reach in order to be this person... then WHY AM I NOT ACTING LIKE THIS PERSON NOW? I do understand that I can't morph into someone completely different overnight, but I can try my d@mndest to emulate that person as much as I can, with every choice I make. I always seem to put things off... putting my laundry up, going through mail, answering emails, batch cooking, clean eating. And for what? Is that really how I want to live my life? No. I'm going to try and approach all situations in the future like... WWOND. What Would Optimized Norma Do?
Going back to this morning and that stupid biscuit... I finally said to myself, "I don't eat stuff like that." Final. That's it. Because O.N. doesn't eat stuff like that. And heated up my egg brekky, walked out of the kitchen, and was done with the situation. Of course, I HAVE recently eaten stuff like this, and worse! But it's kinda like a "fake it til ya make it" kind of deal. Act like and make decisions like Optimized Norma, I will BECOME Optimized Norma. Which brings me to my goals of bringing me closer to this person I want to be. I'm still thinking about this cuz I gotta get specific, so I'll post on that later.