I'm reflecting on the last week and putting my spin on it. I've been slacking off on exercising and a regular schedule. I guess I decided to take a staycation for a week or so. I slept a lot, except for last night. I still haven't gotten all my dirty dishes clean and have pretty much been watching a lot of TV (courtesy of my DVR.) I'm not very far on working for myself, but I did figure a budget. Now I know how much I need to make a month, and I'm going to have to get a part time job. I'm not just going to settle this time, though. I'm thinking a pizza delivery driver, which I did before and made good tips. I could also go with a job as a server, for tips, but I don't want to work more than 20 hours a week so I can still work on getting that other stuff in line. My parents have been really supportive, too. I really can't believe that; I've always felt like they were criticizing me before. Maybe I was being to hard on them; even my mom seems willing to listen and help. She intimidated me, I decided. I feel secure in what I'm doing now and my plan and where I want to go, so I have this new confidence. That might be because of the antidepressants, but that's fine by me! Now, I see all her 20 questions as her way of finding out what I want so she can help as much as possible. I don't rely on others for help, but I've realized that she is quite the resource and her manner is not forceful, only given with conviction. It's so nice to be able to comfortably talk to her!
I've been really annoyed by having to clean and bandage my incision sites the last two weeks, but that's over now! I had to clean them with cotton swabs, soap, and water. That was so tedious! I thought I was going to have to wait until Friday to get my stitches out. I was still up at 3 this morning, because I slept too late yesterday, when I decided to double-check my calendar. It's a good thing I did, because I saw that my appointment was actually today at 9! I didn't get much sleep, though, but I'm glad to have those stitches out! Plus, I thought that they were getting infected, but I found out I was actually seeing the bottom layer of stitches, the ones that dissolve. Huh! Cool! The nurse also told me the results: both moles were benign. That's the best news ever!
I feel way too wiped to try to workout today, but I may try this Tai Chi DVD I got from the library. After a full night's rest, I'll see if I can get 3 10-minute cardio sessions tomorrow, including cardio kickboxing. I also want to try to go iceskating, but only if I can get to the adult fitness skate session. I'm not a skilled enough skater to avoid little people on the ice! I don't want to smash into a five year old on the ice, especially one that can skate better than I do.
I'm going to do better the rest of this month. I've got to stick to my meal plan and get back working out on my schedule. It's good; I know it'll work if I can just do it. I'm ready! (And I hope that scale isn't too mean on Sunday...)