I think I gave up.

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

I have been working out and eating right for 4 months and not one pound came off. I finally called a surgeon for the Lap Band and will be going to my first seminar this Saturday. I know that it took years to put the weight on, but it seems that I go from one diet to another and don't lose a pound or lose it and gain it back. I yelled at the poor counselor at Jenny Craig when she asked me if I wanted to join, I told her "No, I don't want to join a place that pays millions to celebrities to endorse their brand, tell me that I can pay $20 to lose all the weight I want BUT I have to buy their meals. Do you think for one minute that I believe Mariah Carey ate those meals??? Also, after I am done eating those meals, do you teach the dieter how to cook so that they won't gain the weight back?" She had no answer and walked away. I lashed out at a few places (Weight Watchers, Nutra System UGH!!!) I want what works! After being on Spark for a few months and feeling like I am giving up everything that I love the most, and exercising like crazy, I haven't lost a pound and was feeling more hungry at the end of the day. I started taking Xenadrine and it curbed my appetite but I felt light headed one moment or like I drank 4 gallons of coffee the next (I had the shakes big time) if I didn't exercise enough. I then figured to drink Slim Fast but blend in banana, strawberries, blueberries and a little greek yogurt to thicken it up. Great, it is filling but I am not satisfied. At my weakest moment after taking another set of pills for my high cholesterol and pre-diabetes, I called a surgeon for the Lap Band. I cried the entire time on the phone. I am active! I am eating right! I bought a Showtime Rotisserie and no longer fry foods, I gave up soda, juice and only drink the shakes, water or green tea no sugar. Why can't I lose the weight??? I exercise for 30-60 minutes a day, doing what I love, treadmill, Zumba and even just started P90X and I am failing! I want to dig a hole and just cry. I know that it took years to put the weight on, but it has been over 7 months and not one pound? One diet after another. Almost 6 years of diets and I can't see results. What am I doing wrong? My doctor prescribed me Alli but I ruined so many pairs of underwear that I stopped taking it. I am biting people's heads off, I am crying for no reason and trying not to just give up. I keep looking at the Ticker and it says Pounds lost: 0.0. How bad is that? I am still trying to figure out if the Lap Band surgery is my final answer. Praying on it and will know after my meeting on Saturday.
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    Good Luck in your journey! emoticon
    2323 days ago
    you sound like a good candidate for lap band! But if it scares you I would look a little further into other causes of weight gain. It could be a thyroid issue, I found out mine is linked to my hormone and insulin levels! I spent years starving myself and working out to no avail, and it literally WAS NOT COMPLETELY MY FAULT. Don't give up honey you can do this
    2323 days ago
    Please don't give up. I hear you--it is very very hard to lose and gets harder the older you get! I remember in my 20s I could lose weight just by thinking abut it--no more!

    Have you tried meeting with a nutritionist? It sounds like you have tried a lot of quick-fixes and learned (like me) that they don't work.

    I have a friend who tried Lap Band and had horrible complications. She lost weight at first but had one incident where the band 'slipped' requiring emergency surgery. She then got pregnant with her 2nd child and the band BROKE. Had it removed and not replace after she delivered and, sadly, is not bigger than ever before. That is just one story--I know others have had success--but I strongly encourage you to ask very hard questions and make sure this is what you want to do. After my friend's experience I have decided I would never go that way.

    Best of luck on this journey. emoticon
    2323 days ago
    the wonderful thing about this is that you can start everyday fresh!!! how about you forget about the diet mentality (says the one that is scare to eat more because I might gain weight emoticon )

    I am learning to unlearn and to trust, my way has not taking me so far so how about trying something different to get different results.

    start by having 3 meals a day maybe one snack of what you like to eat and tracking it on SP for a week. It help me so much this time around to follow the stages that SP suggests, did you give it a try?

    I believe in you!!! emoticon
    2323 days ago
    Hang in there. Don't give up. Maybe if you share your nutrition and exercise trackers, someone will have some advice for you. Somehow, 6 years ago, I was able to lose 60 lbs. At the time, it felt so easy. Then I put 30 lbs. back on and couldn't get inspired or figure out how to make it that easy again. I did get back on a roll a few months ago and am down about 20 - 25 lbs., but am trying to keep up a lifestyle to keep it off and lose maybe 10 - 20 lbs more. Please don't give up. My best friend NEEDS to lose at least 100 lbs. She has struggled with her weight all her life. It makes me so sad when she gives up on herself. Don't give up on yourself, you CAN do it. emoticon
    2323 days ago
    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

    You have the power to succeed or fail.

    You have chosen to succeed.

    Few baby steps complete a long journey

    Writing is progress!!!

    Janet emoticon
    2323 days ago
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