Sick of gaining and loosing the same 5 pounds!
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
OK so I've had it, I can't do this anymore, I do really, really, good for a week, loose weight, and then think I deserve a "treat" so I eat whatever the hell I want, and end up putting back on anything that I've lost. This is ridiculous! I can't go on like this. Its February already and I'm still at the same old 200 mark. I need to get and stay motivated. When I went grocery shopping today, I bought some of my old diet standbys, I'm hoping that will work. I'm going to try to do cup o soup at night if I am hungry (or just bored) because I'm pretty sure its more boredom and loneliness that has me eating at night and not actual "hunger". I've just got to get my butt in gear and get going. My Mom and my sister are doing weight watchers and they have each lost 5 pounds already. I want to loose too. I really want to get back to 175. I know it can be done I just need to DO IT. We have started planning our next Disney vacation (not till next year) but still, I do not want to go to Disney fat again, I've done that twice, I won't do it again. And I would love to look good in a bathing suit this summer, I don't remember the last time I felt good in a bathing suit. So I'm going to try my hardest the next few weeks, I did work out yesterday, (finally) I figured I'd start off at 3 days a week and then work it up to 5. I really want this to work, and I want to stop sabotaging myself and any efforts I make. Yes this will be hard, and Yes it will take time (probably longer than I want it to take) But the results will be worth it. And I deserve this. I am worth it.