Finding the "inner" spark
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
As my youngest baby approaches 8 months I realize, time to make it happen. I dwell too much on the past and it weighs me down. After three kids I didn't even look like I had any. Now, I look like a mom of 4. But this new year I made an improved resolution, just celebrate what I did do and not set unrealistic standards. I want to work out everyday but in reality, I can't. It is ok. I celebrate finding the time to. I just worry about what I can do. Nutrition. I can not control much of the life around me, but I can control what I eat. This last baby brought sugar addiction! His name is Christian. I ate way too much sugar with him and I don't even know why. I don't even like soda that much, but I was drinking a two litter every day (caffeine free). He came out but the cravings stayed. Now my ghrelin level is out of whack. SO much is produced during their spikes and I only eat so much that the peptide "y" and leptin are not matching correctly. I am full after I eat but there is that extra ghrelin floating around so I end up eating something sweet. Easy way to put excessive carbs in the system. Then I am fine. It is a battle that has been hard to control. Now that I have been persistent and slowly bringing my cravings and portions under control, I am finding my inner spark.
Since the new year I have been doing well. I participate in team challenges now as extra motivation. Between full time college credits and four kids ages six and under, I lose track in these challenges but I gain much more then the win, motivation. I am only five pounds down but I feel great and that's where it all starts!!!
Spark on everyone!!!