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My life is horrible.

Monday, February 06, 2012

I am so damn depressed I dont know what to do. I have lost 30 pounds over the last few months but now am gaining it back and i dont know how to stop it right now. All I want to do is sleep, work, and unfortunately when I'm home eat. I've had to leave a relationship of 13 yrs that I thought would not end, and never thought they would treat me this way. I've been gone now for 7 months and only 2 times in the 7 months have they contacted me. It's like I dont exist to them anymore. I just cant take this and i dont know what to do. I have never been alone and it's hard when your my age to change. Sometimes I have good days but mostly i just dont want to do anything. I've lost so much in the last few months I dont know how to go on. I've lost a family(they had kids from a previous), the person I thought I would grow old with, and my very best friend ever. I just dont know what to do. emoticon
It's been easier before to come back and start over but this time I just dont know.
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  • MAYFIELD0801
    I really dont have a doctor and I dont want to be put on meds cuz I know thats what they will do. I thank you for the words of encouragement it is much appreciated, more than you know. I really have no one to share anything with these days. My kids are to busy for mom and other than my last relationship I really have no friends, not good at that kind of thing, so just sharing on here even if it's to myself helps alittle. I know in the back of my head that things will get better but right now I just dont know what to do in the meantime. I'm just going day to day and dealing with the here and now. Thats all I can do. I just hope in the meantime I dont get as big as an elephant. I'm trying to not eat and if I do eat healthy but for some reason its just not working.
    2325 days ago
    sending you good vibes, there are many Sparkers on here who have experienced the pain you speak of.
    I hope you will see your doctor as you appear to have a form of depression. As the previous poster says, exercise is a brilliant first line treatment for mild depression....and it can be free!
    best wishes for you, there will be better times to come but will need to be discovered.
    2325 days ago
    Hugs! Not sure if this is appropriate, but I recommend you see your Doctor and tell him/her what you are going through.

    Grief brings depression, so at the minimum you might want to just go for a walk. I have had long term relationships end and lost loved ones and know the grief will pass. It takes time but exercise and sharing have helped me travel the road.

    I have been single now for a few years. I am living a life I never imagined while I was in a committed relationship. I wish you peace and joy.
    2325 days ago
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