Here we go, here we go, here we go (sing with me people)
Monday, February 06, 2012
I am back on the straight and narrow. I've bascially had almost 2 months of eating whatever I like and while it was great fun, I have suffered for it. I've gained a shed load of weight, my jeans which were nice and loose are now tight (again, sigh), my face is breaking out, my gut is complaining, I feel tired and listless and uncomfortable all the time.
So, I am day two of eating like a normal person again and it's going well. I had a headache yesterday but I couldn't tell is that was sugar withdrawal, caffeine withdrawal or jet lag. So far today I have refused the many offers of sugar laden sweets and feel good about doing so. You have to celebrate the small victories! Especially where I work, it's all about sweets, cakes, chocolate and caffeine. How my colleagues stay so thin while indulging everyday I will never know.
I am on plan for going to bed early (9pm) and getting up early (6:30am) and so don't feel sleep deprived which helps me stay strong. When I don't have enough sleep I cave to sugar too easily and then hate myself for it. I went shopping yesterday after work and my fridge is now stocked with good food and best of all, no processed or packaged foods. Much easier to eat well if the foods aren't there to temp in the first place.
I plan to make it back to dancing class this week and at some point turn the treadmill back on and get going again. I'm sure I'm going to have to learn to run all over again after a 3 month break! (wow I didn't realise it was that long!) but I miss it, which can only be a good thing.
My interviews are now over. I flew back to the UK twice in two weeks and am now physically, emotionally and financially shattered! I will be staying in for a couple of months to try and make up the cost of the flights, which can only help my healthy eating plan.
The interviews themselves were long, both about 6 hours, with group interviews, maths and literacy tests and one on one interviews. I am glad they are over but now I have to wait until April to find out if I was successful. If anything, the last month proved to me that in times of stress I eat. A LOT. In fact, although I thought I was coping well all I was really doing was eating. I need to figure out how to cope with stress in a more productive, healthy way. I really do!!
So, am full of hope this week. I will be getting on the scale on Sunday and that is all. No sneak peaks for me this week. Fingers crossed for a really good loss!