This time is different, I have God on my side. :)
Wednesday, February 01, 2012
I have been a member here since April of 2010. I keep falling off the wagon, time and time again. But this time it's different!!
First and foremost, I have God on my side now. :) Since the beginning of this year I have been thinking a lot about God. Not that I hadn't before, but it's different this time. This past week or so I feel like I have really grown a lot closer to Him.
I don't know what to make of what has been happening the past few days. First of all, all that don't know, I am not a religious person. Yes, I believe in God. But no, I do not go to church. I do not read my bible everyday. Nor do I read it once a week or once a month. Maybe once a year?? I know that's not good. But, that's just how it is.
I think God is trying to speak to me. Like I said, I am not a religious person at all. But little things have been happening around me, and I think they are signs. Two Sundays ago, 2 of my nieces (14 and 15 year olds) invited me to church. They gave a testimony, and it touched me. I shed a few tears, they were happy ones. This was the beginning of my lifetime changes. A few days ago, I read a post on facebook where someone needed some prayers. I get those a lot, but this one touched me. Then, I found a shared link someone had posted on facebook talking about Jesus and Religion. I clicked on it and listened with an open mind. Then I watched a movie called Courageous. A MUST SEE MOVIE!! Anyway, and it really hit me hard. Then, just today I was reading a post from Tyler Perry.
I don't know what all these things are trying to tell me, but it's trying to tell me something. Everything that I have mentioned have really touched me in a way, that I have never felt. Something is going on, and I don't yet know what to make of it. If anyone has any ideas what these things may be telling me, please let me know. Maybe I will figure it out on my own or maybe someone can give me some insight!!
A friend of mine invited me to church. I have not yet answered her. I sort of scared me in a way. I am not saved, nor am I baptized. I feel like I need to, but, I don't want to just go to church this one time and "use" the preacher just to save me and baptize me. I know we are not promised tomorrow and yet, I keep putting it off. I guess I need to find it within myself to open up and move forward.
About my weight journey?? well, I have been watching my calorie intake, joined a gym, and actually working out. It's been 3 weeks, (I don't really count the first week, because I sort of fell off that darn wagon lol). So, in 2 weeks, I've been doing really good. I have lost 4.4 pounds! I know it's not alot, but I feel so much stronger and just feel so much different this time. I'm thinking it's because God is speaking to me, and this time with Him by my side, I can do this. I WILL do this.
Thank you all for listening and, as I mentioned earlier, any insight will be much appreciated.
May you all have a wonderful and blessful day!