I'm sticking to my self challenge
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
To try something that Scares me or that I may not be all that excited to do. I've realized that the only thing that can hold me back from myself is ME. So when I decided to get healthy I made a challenge to myself that I would try something that Scares me ( like a new class that looks hard, or that I may not feel like I can do) or do something I may not be excited about doing. Case in point....Pole Dancing. Ok so when you think about pole dance first thoughts that come to you head "Stripper, Slutty, Sleazy" but I have to explain this. My sister is doing her first Triathlon this summer and she did a fundraiser "pole dancing for a cure" and she told me that my cousin had already paid for me so I had to go. Yeah I'm not thrilled about this AT ALL. First of all I am over 200lbs and have no business on a pole and I was very intimidated, and second of all I didn't want to be around all of these little in shape marathon runners, and third I have a HUGE issue with my body and I do not in ANY WAY EVER feel sexy. I hate my flabby arms and on a good day I look 6 months pregnant....and you have to wear shorts and tank tops (2 things I keep buried in the back of my closet because Casper the Flabby ghost has no business wearing these in public). But I did go and you know what? I wasn't the biggest one there! AND OMG did I have a great time, in fact I had so much fun I'm going back!!! It's done in a studio setting, in Good taste. And there was nothing sleasy about this class. Plus I fell in love!!!! With my shoes and I bought them and came home with the sexiest pink shoes ever! I'm so in love with them!!! Did I feel sexy, NOT AT ALL! Did it matter, NOT ONE BIT! Am I glad I went, You Betcha!!!