My cousin makes me cringe
Monday, January 30, 2012
I had to stop following my cousin on Facebook. She went from really good kid to I just just wanna open a can of kick butt on her. She's very self destructive. She treats my aunt like crap. My aunt is disabled, no money, terrified every day that she'll be homeless. My cousin had a party around maybe half a year ago in the house that they were about to sell and DESTROYED IT. I mean holes in the wall, cement down drains, furniture torn up, stuck random things down chimney pipes, pulled down fixtures. They wrecked the house. So I went off on her. My aunt is just stuck living in this torn apart house, no furniture, couldn't sell it anymore. It's horrible. But she did nothing to my cousin. And my cousin didn't pay for a damn thing, instead she moved into an apartment with a friend. All they do is get high and drink and I'm scared as to where her money comes from. So I've just washed my hands of her. I try not to think about her. She doesn't want my help, fine. I can't do anything for her.
So today her sister posts a picture on facebook that says "Please pray for my sister, I'm terrified." The picture is one that I guess my cousin had taken of herself where her bones are literally sticking out. And under it is all these comments from guys saying "looking sexy, can't wait to hit that, lemme feel on that" and stuff that makes me sick.
Normally I'd panic over her. But I've hit that point that I just wish she would disappear. I know that makes me a horrible person but I just don't know what to do about it anymore. I can't even say I love her anymore. We used to be really good friends and I'm just done.
So right now I'm just praying that I can change my heart on this and that we can get her help. I know that's what she needs. I'd hate myself if she died and I let my pride get in the way of saying something to stop this. Sorry, vent vent vent.