Cry Me A River ;(

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Stopping by to say HEY!

Today started off good until I find out my oldest daughter has a fever of 102 I hate when she gets sick this is what causes me to go back to my old habits from living in the hospital with my daughter on and off for 9 years it tends to weigh down on me and I would turn to not focusing on eating healthy just eating.

My 9 year old daughter was born with a liver diease with so many surgeries all the way up until she had to live on oxygen due that her lungs started to fail and cause her liver to give out completely. Getting on the liver transplant list and receiving her new liver November 23 2009 was our big Thanksgiving gift. I knew things wouldn't get better FAST!
But, for 2 years her liver has been through rejection after rejection causing US to have to be in the hospital for days, weeks and sometimes months. So this weigh down on me all the time. Jsu by me typing this I'm crying cause I'm feeling the urge to just give up once again. Trying to mange taking care of a sick child then another child thank God she's healthy. Then school, working and trying to be a great single mom that I can.

Okay just thought I would vent. I'm going to push forward even if I have to take 30 min walks throughout the hospital that's something.

Thanks for reading. Smooches!!!
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  • no profile photo MRSGOAD
    wow. don't forget yourself.
    i hope she gets better soon!
    3319 days ago
    Taking time for yourself is some of the best modeling a mother can do, especially for daughters. If all they ever see is you putting yourself last, isn't that what they learn being a woman means? However, if they see you practicing exquisite self-care, they will learn without being told that each person is valuable and deserves to be as healthy and happy as they can be.

    Sending healing energy, strength and grace to all the vibrant women & girls in your family emoticon emoticon emoticon
    Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon
    3320 days ago
    take good care of yourself, which will help you take good care of HER. sending fuzzy emoticon your way....
    3321 days ago
  • ABB698
    I am praying for your daughter, and that you will remember to take care of Lesa as well! Hang in there! emoticon
    3321 days ago
    3321 days ago
    You have a lot on your plate! But thank God your daughter has a wonderful mother like you! Whatever you do, don't give up! Keep pushing! You got this!

    3321 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11399041
    It's good to vent and it sounds like you have a lot of reason to do so. I can't imagine being in your place. Having a sick child is very hard, being a mom you wish you could take their place and you do whatever you can for them. It's hard when they are ill to think of anything but them, even harder to try and think of yourself too at that time. I hope you can manage to take some time for you.
    Can you pack yourself a cooler of healthy snacks and food maybe? The walks through out the hospital sound like a great idea.
    I wish you and your two daughters well and will keep good thoughts going for all of you. emoticon
    3321 days ago
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