Those last 5 pounds

Friday, January 27, 2012

I successfully lost 35+ pounds this year. Over the past 40 years of my life, I've lost those pounds at least 5 times over! My highest weight was above 185. I weighed 128 on my wedding day.

Now I've got those infamous last five pounds to lose. Right now I'm coasting. My weight fluxuates between 131 and 133 pounds, not bad for a 5'4", 65 year old woman. I wear size 6 comfortably. I have a very small frame. My ring size is 5. With small wrists and ankles I cannot pretend I have "big bones". I have also lost 2 inches in height. That threw me for a loop.

So, I want to weight between 125 and 128 pounds. I'm not obsessing. But I'm vigilant, which is why I returned to Spark. I follow a modified Paleo diet, which works find for me. Eliminating sugar and overdosing on carbs did the trick. If you can eat meat (and fat) you're not hungry. It's amazing. I totally gave up diet soda and only drink water. Yes, I'll have a glass (or two) of wine once in a while. Pizza is a special treat. I survived the Holidays without gaining weight. First time EVER!

Life has not gotten suddenly better. You don't lose weight be make your life perfect. There's no such thing. My husband still has PTSD and Diminished Executive Functioning. My mom should have 24/7 care - and doesn't. My brother, the light of her life, shows up if/when it fits his schedule. I have RA, spinal stenosis, and a whole load of other medical issues not worth mentioning. I try to be grateful for what I have, not what I don't. Life's a _itch, but the alternative is worse.

I was AWOL for over 6 months. I missed the community. I am back in contact with some of my Spark Friends, but some have "unfriended" me. That hurts, but I understand. I've already made a few new buddies. With time, maybe my previous friends will reconnect. Maybe they are also in a different place. Like "real-life" friends, virtual friends each have their place. To everyone. I am sorry I dropped out. At the time it was necessary. I'm back, hopefully for ever.

Have a sparking day everyone!

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    Life is what you make it Lil and you're making yours a healthy one.
    You've done so well and I know you can manage the last mile. emoticon
    Like you some of my friends disappeared while I was away from Spark but, also like you, I've made some new ones.
    Hope you have a wondeful week-end emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 1/28/2012 2:53:53 AM
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    I'm here for you forever! I'm glad you're back and I understand some of your life issues. My dad needs care 24/7, too, but refuses to budge. There are stresses everyday, but I think the Paleo lifestyle helps with stress tremendously. I lost 4 lbs. this week going back to 100% Paleo and feel so good. I will get to 135 before summer. Not for the number, but because I feel great inside and out.

    Have a great Friday my friend!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3475 days ago
    You're doing so well! I'm close to goal, and my lowest weight in 25 years, so I can relate. One of my fears is that I'll slip and allow the lbs to creep up again. That keeps me on Spark!

    My doctor shocked me earlier this week - I've lost another 1/2 inch in height in the last 3 years. I've gone from 5'7" to just above 5'6" -- not something I want to hear.

    Kudos to us both for persevering and doing something about our health however.
    3475 days ago
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