Those last 5 pounds
Friday, January 27, 2012
I successfully lost 35+ pounds this year. Over the past 40 years of my life, I've lost those pounds at least 5 times over! My highest weight was above 185. I weighed 128 on my wedding day.
Now I've got those infamous last five pounds to lose. Right now I'm coasting. My weight fluxuates between 131 and 133 pounds, not bad for a 5'4", 65 year old woman. I wear size 6 comfortably. I have a very small frame. My ring size is 5. With small wrists and ankles I cannot pretend I have "big bones". I have also lost 2 inches in height. That threw me for a loop.
So, I want to weight between 125 and 128 pounds. I'm not obsessing. But I'm vigilant, which is why I returned to Spark. I follow a modified Paleo diet, which works find for me. Eliminating sugar and overdosing on carbs did the trick. If you can eat meat (and fat) you're not hungry. It's amazing. I totally gave up diet soda and only drink water. Yes, I'll have a glass (or two) of wine once in a while. Pizza is a special treat. I survived the Holidays without gaining weight. First time EVER!
Life has not gotten suddenly better. You don't lose weight be make your life perfect. There's no such thing. My husband still has PTSD and Diminished Executive Functioning. My mom should have 24/7 care - and doesn't. My brother, the light of her life, shows up if/when it fits his schedule. I have RA, spinal stenosis, and a whole load of other medical issues not worth mentioning. I try to be grateful for what I have, not what I don't. Life's a _itch, but the alternative is worse.
I was AWOL for over 6 months. I missed the community. I am back in contact with some of my Spark Friends, but some have "unfriended" me. That hurts, but I understand. I've already made a few new buddies. With time, maybe my previous friends will reconnect. Maybe they are also in a different place. Like "real-life" friends, virtual friends each have their place. To everyone. I am sorry I dropped out. At the time it was necessary. I'm back, hopefully for ever.
Have a sparking day everyone!