Up late with jitters
Thursday, January 26, 2012
I'm blogging instead of eating, so that's progress. I have an appointment at 9:45 am with a dermatologist to remove some suspicious moles; I'm more worried about it than I thought. It probably didn't help that I found out some troubling news from my mom tonight.
Her youngest brother, whose only forty-two, was diagnosed with cancer in March of 2011. He had colon cancer that had not exhibited any symptoms, then matastisized to his brain. That's when he began having symptoms. They've apparently found out too late, because he has throughout his whole body now. He has to take chemo and radiation treatments for the rest of his life to keep the cancer under control or until the side effects from the treatments are worse than the disease. He's only forty-two! We have never known anyone in the family to have died from cancer or been diagnosed, so this is a surprise to everyone. He even ate very healthy because he has a diabetic son and mainly control it with his diet. I think this is making me especially concerned about my risks, as a former smoker and obese, as well as some terrible sunburns. Those can lead to skin cancer! I had a burn so bad one time from a day at the beach with no sunscreen-I hadn't burned before but was taking medication that made me photosensitive. My muscles even felt burnt! I wore the same clothes for three days because they were the only ones that didn't hurt me. It hurt to move. Ugh! We were on vacation, dang it! I digress; so I think it is possible these moles could be a result of skin cancer. I'm trying not to worry, hoping that I'm young enough that we caught it early and they can just remove it. Also, I'm trying to keep in mind that I still kind of think they changed shape because I gained so much weight and not any other malignant reason. *Deep breath* It will be okay, well, at least for me, not for my uncle
All I can do is pray for his healing and comfort. Those doctors could be wrong...
Well, I just had to get this off my mind and in print. I'm drinking some Sleepytime tea to help me relax and hopefully can go to sleep within 30 minutes. I'm still not going to get enough sleep, but oh well. Stressing about that will just keep me awake! Goodnight! and Good wishes!