Starting again!!!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

This is my first blog of 2012. And my 3rd day back on Spark after over 3 months lapse.
And boy has it been a lapse. I'm not going to get all depressed and list everything that has happened to me, but it really has, without exaggeration, been the WORST 3 months of my ENTIRE life! So much has happened to me, it's unbelievable.

And the result? I forgot all about myself, I gave up, I didn't care about me anymore. I didn't give a hoot about my health, I didn't want to take care of myself. And, as much as it sickens me to say, I'm literally back to SQUARE ONE. I am 0.4lbs off my heighest ever weight!!! To think that I managed to get down to 188lbs in mid-October, to have weighed myself on Monday and realised I have put on over 20 POUNDS in 3's unbelievable.

But you know what, I'm not gonna dwell on this. I know I lost weight before and I most DEFINITELY can do it again. I'm not gonna say 'this is it this time' because I say that every time. And it's been 18 months of off and on and off and on. All I can say is, I am motivated, I care about me again, I've left behind some nasty people in my life and I am going to go full throttle at this. I look back on the last year and I know...I KNOW...that the times I have been the happiest is when I have been in control of my food and exercise. I love that feeling. I crave that feeling. And I'm gonna get there again, no doubt. Just watch me go.

Ok that's all for now. I've done it, I blogged, I confessed, I know where I'm starting from. Back to 209.6lbs! (I literally still can't believe it!) Not for much longer though, I can absolutely assure you of that one. Y'all wait and see emoticon
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    It's great you got started again! I nderstand how 3 months and 20 pounds can completely pass you by :( Hang in there!
    3278 days ago
  • KNH771
    You've got a great attitude! It does no good to beat yourself up. Forgive yourself and move forward.
    3282 days ago
    How awesome that you're back in control! Its really hard when you get drawn in with desructive people and lose yourself. It happened to me for a very long period. What joy that you have come out and you have the opportunity to start afresh! thank you for coming back Adz ... you are a beautiful young woman with a great life ahead of you. Stand tall!
    Sally x
    3283 days ago
    Hello new emoticon , emoticon back and you are in control of you. Keep doing what you doing and that's positive thinking and getting back in the groove.
    3285 days ago
    THERE you are! I was wondering what happened!

    Honey, "life happens". Your life and lifestyle are never going to be written in stone.

    You're back.
    You're back in control.
    We're here to cheer you on!!

    3285 days ago
    I for one missed you a lot and I'm so glad that you are back!! As always don't forget to reach out for support!!! You can do it!!
    3285 days ago
    emoticon back emoticon we are all here to help.
    3285 days ago
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