Wednesday, January 25, 2012
This is my first blog of 2012. And my 3rd day back on Spark after over 3 months lapse.
And boy has it been a lapse. I'm not going to get all depressed and list everything that has happened to me, but it really has, without exaggeration, been the WORST 3 months of my ENTIRE life! So much has happened to me, it's unbelievable.
And the result? I forgot all about myself, I gave up, I didn't care about me anymore. I didn't give a hoot about my health, I didn't want to take care of myself. And, as much as it sickens me to say, I'm literally back to SQUARE ONE. I am 0.4lbs off my heighest ever weight!!! To think that I managed to get down to 188lbs in mid-October, to have weighed myself on Monday and realised I have put on over 20 POUNDS in 3 months...it's unbelievable.
But you know what, I'm not gonna dwell on this. I know I lost weight before and I most DEFINITELY can do it again. I'm not gonna say 'this is it this time' because I say that every time. And it's been 18 months of off and on and off and on. All I can say is, I am motivated, I care about me again, I've left behind some nasty people in my life and I am going to go full throttle at this. I look back on the last year and I know...I KNOW...that the times I have been the happiest is when I have been in control of my food and exercise. I love that feeling. I crave that feeling. And I'm gonna get there again, no doubt. Just watch me go.
Ok that's all for now. I've done it, I blogged, I confessed, I know where I'm starting from. Back to 209.6lbs! (I literally still can't believe it!) Not for much longer though, I can absolutely assure you of that one. Y'all wait and see