The "S" word
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
More job apps sent out.
I got a call from an occupational rehabilitation job person via the worker's comp insurance about job searches, resumes, etc. and have to meet with her next week at a local starbucks. Did I mention that I had training to help put people in touch with the correct job search tools? That doesn't always seem to matter. This person is from the same establishment as the nurse advocate that goes with me to my doctor visits.
Then, this afternoon:
Another Doctor visit down. Ugh.
Today's prognosis - I went to my other ortho doc, my knee doc, to see about the cubital tunnel syndrome. Yes, the injury does stem back to my fall on the ice, and is recorded as such. It seems the worker's comp insurance wanted to argue the point according to my nurse advocate. Because this stems so far back - the initial injury was February 2009, he didn't seem to think there is much other than the "S" word - surgery since I am already on gabapentin. So, today I got the night brace to wear at night, and when my arm might be stressed. I did ask if the hand/arm specialist colleague in his office might offer a different solution. He said I could see that doctor. My nurse advocate says to give it a week to see how I respond to the brace, then we will make the appointment with the other doctor. I did land full force on my right knee and both hands, jarring my low back and neck when I fell on the icy sidewalk 3 years ago. I had sprained both wrists and my shoulders at the time. I have numbness in the three fingers towards the baby finger side, and pain on top of my wrist at times, and arm to elbow. I have had right hand numbness for over two years, and it got worse after the cervical spine surgery, although the left arm pain and numbness pretty much went away. Add this to the back, neck, and knee and I guess I was not really expecting today...or the "S" word surgery.
I think I had a minor meltdown expressing frustrations about job search, my inability to have much stamina, pain, etc. to the nurse advocate, and she gave me some suggestions, talk to my attorney, ask for some modifications in the job search venture. I tend to really obsess, and I am spending way too much time glued to my resumes, and job sites, and getting bent out of shape about it. She told me that all the people she has worked with that were looking for light duty work after an injury, only one person found any! I really feel the stress today. In the car on the way I home, I told my husband this, and that I really felt at the point of tears. So, I guess there are really two "S" words - surgery and stress.