Why am I on this journey to losing weight?

Monday, January 23, 2012

I have spent my entire life being a people pleaser. I did everything I could to make sure everyone around me is happy...everyone except myself. As I felt that I didn't do enough to make others happy, or it wasn't appreciated, I would get depressed, and would eat. I just didn't care about myself. I didn't like the person who I was, and therefore it reflected off of me. I don't feel beautiful, and I want to make sure that I SEE MYSELF as beautiful. I understand that beauty isn't just about being thin, but I want to see myself as healthy. I don't think beautiful is sitting on the couch, stuffing chips ahoy in your mouth crying over how you are single when you don't put yourself out there as a confident person. I've noticed just in the past few weeks that I've felt more confident in myself, and am working on ME, that I'm getting a positive response just in how people talk to me. I'm such a social person, so I need to put that confidence in my social interactions. I'm not asking to be a size 0, I know with my bone structure, that that is probably not a possibility, but I don't want to be. I just want to get down to a size where I am not restricted to shopping at Lane Bryant or Torrid because I simply can't find stylish clothes in my size. I'm 26, I want to be down to a reasonable weight by the time I turn 30. I know that if I keep my mind to it, I can definitely lose it before then, I just have to stay focused. And I have to also learn how to tell others NO. Its not all about them, this life is about me too.
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    Sounds like you have the right attitude. It's going to take some time to put it into motion as with the weight loss you have these feelings that have occured over a long period of time.....they aren't going to go away overnight....but you are doing things to make yourself see yourself in a different light and with that so will other people.....your shine will shine on others and they will get it. The more you require more of other people, the more they will do the same.

    Keep your head up chica!

    I also commented on your post in the Cuties support post.
    2314 days ago
    I see a lot of confidence in your smile and your style. Go You! Keep it up!
    2316 days ago
    AWESOME! Your right this is about YOU! No matter what you are BEAUTIFUL! I wouldn't say I'm a people pleaser I could care less MOST of the time what others think...but I do find myself trying to make others happy...make sense?
    I know your gonna do this! Your mind is set! Keep up the great attitude and hard work!!
    2316 days ago
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