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Eight minutes of courage

Sunday, January 22, 2012

I was talking to an old friend the other day. It has been over 20 years since we lost touch with each other and we were doing the catch up game. I was telling him all the things I do including the fact that I do half marathons. As we were talking I said that I use the physical act of walking these half marathons as a physical manifestation of my stepping through the depression that is forever at my heels since Halleigh died. I have now completed 2 half marathons and am preparing for number 3 in March.

My new goal is to work up to eventually running a half marathon.

I have started to incorporate one minute running cycles into my walking regimen. The other day I did 3 one minute cycles and I could not have been more proud of myself. It does matter how fast or slow I ran - the point is that I ran. Eventually the minutes will add up, they will eventually become longer than 1 minute, eventually I will be able to do more just as when I first started preparing to do my first half marathon.

I spent some time and found a training plan to "start running" via the treadmill.

Tonight I did what I would have thought impossible - I ran for 8 one minute cycles tonight. It was not that long ago I would not have even attempted that feat. I had been living in the "one of these days" modes. The truth is I was scared that I was not going to be able to do it. At my size it seemed just an impossibility. But I saw a picture the other day on an athletic web site that showed a woman closer to my size at one point (she has since lost a lot of weight) - but looking at her picture she is marked like those doing triathalons (and she does them now)....if she can do that at her size - what I am waiting for? After Halleigh I am abundantly aware there is no promise of tomorrow.

I put on my "big girl panties" and got my courage on ....laced up my shoes, printed out the "run" schedule, posted it on my treadmill and away I went....and oh my gosh it was done before I knew it and I actually felt good!

Tonight was 8 minutes of courage ....and this is just the beginning!
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    I always tell myself that I have to start somewhere...just steps to get going. I am proud of you!
    2343 days ago
    emoticon You are amazing!
    2344 days ago
    Congratulations! You did awesome. Keep up the great work! You will be running full marathons before you know it! You really inspire me!
    2344 days ago
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