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A Little Teary Eyed

Sunday, January 22, 2012

I have so many mixed emotions today. My daughter and I have decided to close our children's consignment shop. We have struggled with the finances and have come to the realization that we are fighting for a lost cause. The economy is just not going to let us prosper. I wish I could wave a magic wand to just POOF it gone. I am overwhelmed at the thought of liquidating all our inventory in the weeks ahead. I know that in the next few weeks I am going to be so stressed.
I just rejoined Sparkpeople at the beginng of this month with a determination that I have not felt in years. I hope I can stand up to the pressure of seeing our hopes go down the drain. We have so many decisions to make. I want to stay strong in my commitment to myself to be healthy for the rest of my life..right now, I feel like I can. I just have fears about staying strong. I know from the past, that some of the stress that I have gone through has made me quit trying. I don't want this to happen again...I don't usually journal, but for some reason today, I felt like I should put my concerns out in the open hoping that I can refer back to this so I will remember that I have to stay strong for my health. I have all the factors for a heart attack, stroke and whatever else may come my way. I want to live the rest of my life as healthy as this body that I have abused so badly will let me.
I am at a time in my life that I look back at the years that I have wasted hating my body. Now, it is not a vain reason...It is a time that I might live a little longer to enjoy my family.
When all the stress is over from closing the store, I am going to start concentrating on decluttering my house, taking time for me and take time to enjoy my grandchildren . With this goal in mind, I think I just might feel a little better....I CAN DO THIS!

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    yes you can do this.i will also have to start decluttering my home as well. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2266 days ago
    It is very stressful to see your dreams for down the drain but also remember that when one door closes another one opens. It is painful and pray for strength and believe that God has a plan for you and your daughter. Keep putting your health in the fore-front.
    Good luck and be strong as you sale the inventory. emoticon
    2279 days ago
    You CAN do this!! Just take it one day at a time and keep that positive attitude!!

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    2279 days ago
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