Admitting to a binge
Friday, January 20, 2012
Don't worry, things are ok. Just had a bad anxiety attack today. Life is good. Even better now than it was earlier. Just want all of you to know that I love you, even if you come with flaws.
Redshoes suggested I say what threw me off...
My anniversary was awesome after the makeover yesterday. I talked with Josh and he understands my concerns about my skin and made me feel a lot better about it. A friend I had talked to yesterday wanted to come over and get the details and see my makeover and I told her I'd rather meet somewhere since my house isn't as clean as I would like it. She came over anyways and I started panicking even though the house really wasn't that bad. Then I started cleaning and felt really pathetic because she was upset with me and my house was a mess and it really shouldn't have set me off like that. At least I try with my house and I know my friends still love me even with laundry out. And it's so frustrating to even look at my house because I clean on average 6-9 hours a week and it's always a mess because I always have to stop in the middle of cleaning to help with a school project or I have to get ready for a class, or the boys friends came over, or they have another club I have to drive them to. Being a mom sucks butt sometimes. It's like even when you have time you really don't have time.