It's tough but I am trying!!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

So my journey is the same as most everyone else's. I am overweight...I want to not be overweight! It sounds so simple but it has been leading up to this moment for 20+ years. 3 big babies later (2-10lbs & an 8lb) and lots of broken relationships has just kept adding the pounds on top of each other. I am determined to lose the weight I want to and I am determined to have my kids see the difference and make sure they keep on track so they are not forced to face this reality when they are about to be 44!!

I am a very happy person normally and just last night my sister and I were talking and she said "I don't understand how you have low self-esteem. Your life was never to hard as a kid (agreed) and nothing crazy has happened to you over the years (not so agreed). How do you not have more self-respect and self-esteem?" I said "well, if I knew the answer to that - I might have more!!" But I seriously believe the answer is that I just didn't think it was going to happen to me. I never had to watch what I ate when I was growing up, I had/have a great personality and I was not too hard on the eyes. So what did happen?? I guess I thought that would all carry me through and as the weight kept coming on and staying, it just became the normal. I am admittedly on the lazy side. I just decided that was okay.

Now here I am writing all this down in the hopes that it will keep me going on my path to being happy with my entire person...not just some aspects. I want to be able to wear cute clothes and be embarassed by the things I do that are silly - not because I am fat and people won't only be looking at how silly I am but how fat my stomach is! That does tend to keep me from jumping out there and being myself (happy-go-lucky and more than willing to act goofy (as long as no one is looking at my belly)).

So there you have it - today I am down 7lbs towards my ultimate goal and I feel better than I ever have. I am working out daily and this week I did a Zumba class, a Diva Dance class and played Volleyball...honestly that is more than I have done in the past 5 years combined!! I just need to keep it going and keep my eye on the prize...A Happy Healthy Life and Happy Healthy Relationships (friends and family)! Wish me luck and stay tuned!! :)

I love this saying: "Life is not about a journey to the grave with intentions of arriving safely in a pretty, well-preserved body. It is to skid in sideways, completely used up and worn out, yelling loud WOW!! What a Ride!!!"
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    You know, not only is there wisdom in the council of many, there is also joy in pulling together toward a common goal. Here you are, cheerful, determined, and on your way to health and fitness. You've got Friends!!! You're not alone, trying to figure this out on your own. We are going to be with you every step of the way. There are many, many faces on Spark. Follow Chris Downie's plan and you've got it in the bag for life. For good! Although it seems very wise to analyze where all this weight has come from, one of the easiest conclusions to come to is that -- sadly -- over analyzing the past does not burn that many calories. That said, why not pick up the pace, look ahead, be the happy-go-lucky-kind-a-gal that you are, but put all that energy into one day at a time, looking forward to the end of that 24 hr period. When you're trapped in the rubble, its not a very good idea the do the math on how much weight lies between you and the sunny sky above. It's better to start moving dirt. So, roll up your sleeves and hit the gym! You'll start finding reasons to smile soon enough!
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    3286 days ago
    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

    You have the power to succeed or fail.

    You have chosen to succeed.

    Few baby steps complete a long journey

    Writing is progress!!!

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    3291 days ago

    emoticon for a first blog here! And emoticon on the loss so far!

    A great saying to live by. Love the journey, enjoy the scenery, accept that sometimes a good looking path will end up a dead-end, and pay attention to the path right in front of us rather than looking in the mirror or dreaming about some future destination.
    3291 days ago
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