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Thursday, January 19, 2012
With losing this weight I've become more confident being naked around Josh somewhat but I'm still not good at the... sexy stuff with the lights on. This morning he was being weird and I kept telling him I wanted to know why he was being so different. He wasn't being mean, he was just acting unusual. I had to take the kids to school and head to the gym for my class so I told him to give me a call if he needed to talk about anything. Right before I was supposed to walk into class he sends me a text that says "I don't know how to say this to your face because I don't want you to feel bad. We have great sex but I don't feel like you put any effort into getting ready for sex. I don't feel like you're excited about it at all and feel like it's ok to just show up to the party. I know I shouldn't feel upset about this but I do."
We have two nights a week where we sleep in the same bed because I work the night shift. Every now and then I crawl into bed with my sweats still on from class but most nights I take a shower, brush my teeth, and crawl into bed in my underwear. I have lingerie but I don't feel like I look good in it at all. I'm extremely self conscious in it. I'd rather hide under the covers with the lights off. I know he doesn't mind how I look but my extra skin is really really bothering me and him seeing it just ruins the whole thing and makes the sex really bad. So I guess I'm just looking for some answers on how to make him know I'm excited about it and how to look like I'm excited about it feeling like my husband is looking at a half way deflated balloon....
And for once on a girl topic I would actually like some guy advice.