NAIMATANNER

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Thursday, January 19, 2012

My fiance is taking me to Miami in April...YAY, right? Wrong! Instead of thinking of the amazing time we will have relaxing on the beach and dancing the night away, all I can think about is how fat I am compared to all those beautiful women in Miami.

This insecurity makes no sense. I know my fiance loves me and only has eyes for me. I know it's ridiculous to compare myself to perfect 21-year-old Latin women. But it's hard not to think of how enormous my thighs are and how the roll of fat is still apparent even in my one-piece "slimming" black swimsuit. All of my "cute" jeans create a muffin top.

These insecure thoughts caused me to have a terrible binge last night.

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But today I'm determined to look at this trip for what it really is - a chance for me and my babe to relax and connect in a beautiful place. It's the opportunity to create another wonderful memory of our time together. I'm grateful to God for giving us the financial means to go on such an awesome trip (it wasn't always like this for me). And finally, this trip will hopefully provide the motivation I've been lacking to really get and stay on my plan.

Today I'm going to take a "before" picture of me in my two-piece swimsuit. Hopefully I will be able to post an "after" picture of me on the beach in Miami wearing it!

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  • INSPIRE12
    Its easy for me to say dont beat your self up. However we all have these insecurities. I want you to look yourself in the mirrow every day and say how beautiful you and your body is.Because your truly beautiful. Then thank god for a wonderful man who wants to share time with you. Your truly blessed.Have fun.
    3472 days ago
  • BGARNIER
    I sometimes have the same insecurity when I go to Costa Rica (a.k.a. where all the hot women come from). When I share these thoughts with my husband, he reminds me that I'm more beautiful than all of them and he loves my body. I used to push these comments aside, thinking he's crazy. But the last week, I've been trying to change my brain. Every morning, throughout the day, and before I go to bed, I think to myself: "I have an amazing body, my body is beautiful and it can do some amazing things. I love my body and my husband loves it too. And I have a great relationship and life going for me right now". At first, I did not believe what I was saying but it's starting to sink in now and it's made me really happy. So, NAIMATANNER, YOU have an amazing and beautiful body and YOU better believe it! lol.
    3475 days ago
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