I’m Back? Or “Bad Medicine”
Thursday, January 19, 2012
So, recently- due to mistakes on our part picking up prescriptions- I ended up getting off of the med that has been helping me sleep through the night. This med is technically an anti-depressant, but it wasn’t being used for that purpose.
For a while things were UGLY- random crying storms, anxiety, etc…and then the sun came out from behind the clouds and I was me again. I have energy, I laughed so hard a few times that I couldn’t even stand up, and almost ALL my pain went away (as long as I kept up with my other meds). I regained some of my passion for random things- I started reading and playing video games again (and became, once again, obsessed with Ezio Auditore) In short, I feel better than I have since last June.
I’m also back to not sleeping, however. I did a sleep study almost two weeks ago so I’m looking forward to finding out what I can do to help me sleep that’s NOT this med, cause I have to tell the doc that the med is done. My life right now is so much better than it’s been, I have no desire to go back to that.
Somewhere in all of this I’ve managed to (finally) break 150. I have no idea where that came from- certainly I’m not exercising (yet) and my food intake has stayed fairly constant (though the foods that I like are veggies and fruits, so maybe it’s just me eating like me). But it’s a starting point for getting healthy and happy.
And I need to- I won two awards from a LARP group this year (huzzah!) and am excited to get back to it. To do it in the way I would like I need to build up stamina and become a better fighter. It’s also the last season for my favorite LARP and I want to be able to experience all of that as well. In addition to all of this, and as part of my obsession with my virtual boyfriend, I am planning on getting a tattoo, my first. Can I use this as a turning point for the future? That is my plan.
So- I have a Kinect, I have tai chi DVD, I have work out DVDs, I have Ezio to run around Constantinople with. Now, all I have to do is DO IT!
Nihil verum, Omnia licitia