Closing a Chapter of My Life

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I have been married 39 years as of last Christmas Day. My dear husband told people he married me on December 25th so he could remember when Christmas was! He was a wonderful man. I lost him on January 12, 2012. His funeral was yesterday, January 16th.

He is no longer in pain, no longer suffering, as he has for three long years. He is okay nowÑwhole, not hurting, embraced by the arms of God. I don't begrudge for a minute that he has gone on ahead of me.

Yes, I'll miss himÑalready do. Yes, I love him so much. Yes, I'll be lonely. But I have the hope of the resurrection and I know I'll see him again, be with him again someday.

Things will return to normal, it will just be a new normal. This is the first time in my adult life that I have not been responsible for anyone but myself. It will be different, but will become my new normal.

I am grateful for friends like SparkPeople who give me so much support. I'll need you more than ever now. Thanks for being there.
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    I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband passed on in 1994. I can tell that you have the right attitude to move on. We just have know that our loved ones are at peace and have no pain now. God will care for you now.
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    2256 days ago
    I am so sorry for your loss. I too know you will miss him. God has blessed you with comfort and assurance that you will be with him again. What a blessing! You are in my prayers.

    2277 days ago
    Nina, so sorry for your loss. I love your positive attitude, accepting what is and ready to embrace your new normal. God bless.

    2290 days ago
  • MARYB73
    Nina, this is a great blog. Everything is in the hands of God and he has great things planned for you.
    2290 days ago
    Nina, you are a remarkable woman. I admire you so much. I'm sorry for your loss, but we all know that he is now free of suffering and someday you will be with him. My thoughts and prayers are with you


    2290 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds as though you are in control today. Understand that it is okay to have some days when you aren't as well. Hugs!
    2290 days ago
  • JB122383
    I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. I will remember you in my thoughts and prayers. I will pray that God will give you comfort and peace. I agree that he is in a much better place now, streets of gold, no pain, no suffering, a mansion for wonderful!

    When you get lonely, you know you can always come to SP. There is always someone online that will be willing to talk and/or listen. Hope you don't mind, I added you as a SP friend. So, if you need someone, you can always call on me.

    2290 days ago
  • REDSHOES2011
    emoticon Understand your situation, I lost my husband back in 2004..
    2291 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss...your husband sounds like he was a wonderful husband and friend!
    2291 days ago
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