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To run or not to run.....

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

So... for the past two days I have been attempting to run again. I LOVE running! I love the sweat that only comes with a good run. I love the feel of my heart pumping in my chest and my lungs working overtime. L.O.V.E.
Now.. my feet sometimes object. I have tried to get back to running on many occasions... My feet rebel. They don't like it.
Is the endorphin rush that I get from running worth it? Yes... sometimes...
I think my problem has always been that I want to run the way I USED to... and I can't.
I CAN run in one or two minute intervals.
I CAN get on the treadmill and not judge my success by the distance I ran, but by the sweat I worked up.
I CAN be OK with only 20 or 25 minutes on the treadmill and not an hour or more.
I CAN run... not a 5K... not a marathon... but a quarter mile... and be proud of that.
Running a 12 minute mile is still running!!!
I am done feeling like I can't run only because I can't run long distances or for a very long time or for very fast. I love how it feels to run.
I don't love how it feels to have pain in my feet.
There is definitely a happy medium and I am going to find it. I will not feel bad about myself when I read about how much running everyone else is doing.
I am a runner.
I get on my treadmill - or go to the park - and I run.
I refuse to define being a runner by how much or how far or how fast I run.
I have always been a runner.
I still am.
I run... that makes me a runner.
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    I love that you're doing what you can do - keep rocking it!
    2283 days ago
    I feel for you! I had abdominal surgery a few months ago and I'm still in a lot of pain. I keep getting on that treadmill though, hoping to break out a run soon. I can barely make it a mile walking right now though! I keep reading everyone else's blogs about 10Ks and 1/2 marathons and I am so jealous!!!!
    2284 days ago
    I feel your pain. It's so hard to have to restrict yourself, but I see that you are wise and working inside your limitations. Go, runner!
    2284 days ago
    emoticon blog and super attitude.
    2284 days ago
    I loved this blog what I great attitude I would like to run and have the same problem pain in feet and legs. I too am a runner thank you for posting this blog!
    2284 days ago
    I agree!!!! You are so a runner!!!!!! Even if you were to do a 'race' of any sort... No one ever said you can't walk/run it ... If someone is after a 'time' it should only be to better themselves, not to compare with someone else... I only 'race' myself.... Take care I those feet and enjoy the endorphins... They are soooo great, aren't they!?!? Xx
    2284 days ago
    I typed some comments FIRST and then scanned your blogs to discover your foot problems so I've deleted my post so as not to waste your time by telling you things you already know..LOL...
    2284 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/17/2012 4:08:15 PM
    This is a great post! My feet don't much like running right now, either, and I keep feeling pangs of defeat when I read about 5ks, 10ks, and half marathons. I feel so much better after reading this. And LISAINMS, I love your comment!

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    2284 days ago
    I absolutely detest that SP lists in the tracker a different label based on pace. There's no technical difference between a jogger and a runner. And if you run at a 16 min mile pace, you're still a runner. Running is defined by having both feet off the ground at a point in the stride. If you do that, you are running. Period. It has nothing to do with pace or distance. You are a runner. Do it however it works for you!
    2284 days ago
    I love your attitude RUNNER!! emoticon
    2284 days ago
    A 12 minute mile is running. You are awesome. Listen to your body and keep it up, As another sparker said, interval training is better for you anyway.

    2284 days ago
    What a great post! It's hard to remember sometimes that I'm only in competition with myself, no one else! Do what makes YOU happy and what feels right to you! emoticon
    2284 days ago
    I love running too although I have not done it for awhile. Way to go! emoticon
    2284 days ago
    You are a runner!!! "I refuse to be defined by how far and how fast I run" is beautiful!!! I agree need to find what works for YOU!!!!! We all do regardless!! I am proud of you and think you are amazing that you are willing to work through the pain. So many people would just give up!! Just be careful!!!
    2284 days ago
    I want you to find that happy medium, too!
    2284 days ago
    emoticon I love the attitude. And, heck yeah, a 12 minute mile is running! YOU GO GIRL!

    PS - Intervals are better for you anyway emoticon
    2284 days ago
    Love it! Listen to your body and do what you can. You'll find your happy medium!!

    2284 days ago
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