It's been a while since I wrote a blog, and I've quite a few things on my mind. First of all, I'm so excited!! I did it, I did it, I did it!! I made it below 260 pounds. It's so great! Even though I've been sick this past week, I stayed within my calorie range and stayed hydrated. Let me tell you, I thought I was going to die because I couldn't breathe! I had visited my friends last week Saturday, but they failed to mention that they were sick! I'm a big believer in prevention, so, of course I've already been taking measures this cold and flu season. I drink echinacea wellness tea every day, airborne before I go out in public, the whole nine yards. Plus, it just snack up on me! I was fine Sunday when I went to bed. When I woke up on Monday, I could feel a bunch of phlegm in my chest, could feel it rattling, and hear myself wheezing. Ugh! My nose was clogged and runny at the same time. I've never really understood how that's possible...I couldn't even walk five steps without having to sit down to rest! I managed to make it to Walgreen's to get some extra strength MucinexDM. I usually avoid cough suppressant, but every cough took all my energy, it was so forceful. That had to stop!! My mommy was awesome and brought me some more meds, cough drops, and cans of soup. Preparing food was out of the question! I couldn't stand long enough to cook oatmeal! I felt so weak, probably part of it because I wasn't eating even 1000 calories for a day or two. Phooey!! It's over now anyway.
I knew I couldn't afford to be sick and take time off from exercising, if I wanted to reach my weight loss goals. By the way, I have long term and short term ones of been working on. This month was a 10 pound loss, since there were 5 Sundays this month. I decided to weigh in on Sundays since the new year started on Sunday. Overall for this year, I expect to reach 166.2 pounds by December 31st. 52 weeks in a year x two pound loss a week=104 pound loss this year. I began this year at 270.2, so that would be 166.2 pounds. That's almost in a healthy weight range!! Close enough, if you ask me! Now, I don't mean I'm stopping there, okay? I just think that would be fantastic when I reach that weight! I was happy with how I looked the last time I weighed that much, I was buff, strong, and totally confident in everything I was wearing, even my birthday suit
I guess here is a good spot for my self-revelation of late. I don't want to give too many personal details, but I just up and quit my new full-time job. Let me interject here that the wheels in my head NEVER stop turning! I can't stop them. I think ALL THE TIME!! Whatever idea is in my head I obsess over and over until I'm sick of thinking about it, or more often, have reached a successful conclusion. I consider it a blessing and a curse but have been working to use it to my advantage. Might as well, right? Then I was thinking, I should use my other characteristics in a positive way, put them to use to live the life I actually want to live instead of feeling like a sell-out at nearly every job I've had. First of these, I am stubborn as a mule-excuse me-determined is the positive word for that. When I decide I want to do something, really want to, I will figure out a way. Furthermore, I will refuse to accept reality and attempt to change it so I can do what I was wanting to. I'm very smart (please, I'm not a genius) or so many people have told me. I know I can figure stuff out, whatever it is. I'm creative at finding solutions that most people don't think of. As a result, I do what my dad calls "strange things." I've been experiencing this for a while, people thinking I'm weird. It's been so long a part of my life that I just do what I think is best, no matter how unconventional it is. I guess I'm eccentric. I just try to be the best me I can be, but the feedback I get is that I'm very odd. Whatever: I reach my goals. The only reason I ever give up on anything is if I convince myself that I don't want it that bad or at all. I'm going to work freelance and use all the skills that I have and build on them until I am able to support myself with them! More on this later...
For my weight loss, I have made this work excellently. I know my excuses, my tendencies. If I have junk food around, I will eat it. Too much of it! What do I do? Don't buy it! I meticulously plan every meal and snack, calorie for calorie, between 200- and 400 calories. I aim for the lower end for snacks and the higher end for meals. Sometimes, I eat more than that at meals. I have slip ups. However, this planning takes a while and really helps me stick to it! I write it all down, add it all up and even figure in protein (I've been having a difficulty meeting my needs every day.) I remember telling a coworker this, and her reaction. Like, who would be so meticulous as to do this? Ha! Me! Another weird thing I do...It's working! I have faith in myself. I know that I really want this, and I'm not talking myself out of it. I know I will make it work, or die trying! Really! The only thing that can stop me at all is me! So, of course I can do it! Why? Because I know myself. I know how I am, what I do, the way I think. I know how to plan around it, adapt, and succeed. This is it. This is my life, and I can make it the way I want it to be! And so can you