Sunday, January 15, 2012
Oh the pants....officially are painful to zip. HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF!?!?!!?? And I'm not talking just one pair of pants, I'm talking ALL of my pants. HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF?!?!?!?!
So, officially, I'm done. This is not loving me. This is hating me. How can I motivate others and treat others respectfully but treat myself like this? HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF!?!?!?! I wake up every morning with the intention to do better today and then I get down on myself about something and give up. HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF!?!?!?! I know I love me, but I need to love me more, and truly. And unconditionally. It's not fair to be so hateful to myself. HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF?!?!?!
Here's where it stops. Right here. Right now.
I have a lot of plans for myself this year. Lots of athletic feats including running a marathon. 26.2 miles of just me and its going to be a hell of feat if I am toting around an extra 20lbs. I don't want to do that to myself. I owe it to me to take care of myself.
So that's what I'll be doing. Taking care of me. And it starts right now!!!! Muah, to me!!!