Sunday, January 15, 2012
Hell in a handbag I am so far off the reservation I can't even see a way back. Know what I had for breakfast yesterday? (while lying in bed watching Dr Who). 4 frozen cupcakes, that's right, I said frozen, I didn't even wait for them to thaw. and some chocolate.
know what I had for dinner that evening? 3 toasted bagels with butter and the rest of the chocolate. There was a burger and fries at lunch time. and some crisps.
today I had a cheese wrap for breakfast and a banana and some chocolate for lunch. I imagine chocolate will appear in my dinner plans too.
It appears that I don't deal with my emotions. Instead I attempt to suffocate them with food. When that doesn't work, I throw some more food on top of them in the hope they'll go away.
What am I all emotional about? see here http://dubaigirlrants.wordpres
s.com/ and the interview on Friday. Not only am I eating everything in sight as long as it's bad for you but I've also not booked the flight yet and didn't do a scrap of research this weekend.
I am well and truly burying my head in the sand. And I know I'm doing it but can't seem to get off! I fuly expect to be in the 220s next week when the interview is over and I forsee myself calming the f down and sorting myself out properly.
David, you're right, I need to make plans to cope. Sadly I am just not there yet. It's chaos in my head, my food, my life.