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Little Changes....

Friday, January 13, 2012

I couldn't believe it. I had to check and re-check.... Yep, watch and rings are loose. Had to take some rings off, and my watch is way loose, I kept spinning it around my wrist. Around and around... wasn't this thing tight on me? Yep. Had to re-adjust it. My rings are put away, and I am looking forward to getting them resized.

I am amazed by these little things.

They wanted cake. I made them cake. With ice-cream. I didn't even lick my fingers. I could tell the cake was still warm, the chocolate smell was familiar, I knew exactly how it would taste. I didn't want it. I didn't feel like I was really making a choice, I just feel like that's part of my old life, that I am leaving behind.

I am leaving, mentally and physically, the fat-self I used to be.

The caterpillar is leaving to become the butterfly.

“How does one become a butterfly” she asked pensively
“You must want to fly so much you are willing to give up being a caterpillar.”
“You mean die?”
“Yes and no,” he answered. “What looks like you will die, but what’s really you will still live”
—–From Hope For The Flowers

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    Way to go!
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  • FITB4-40
    You are making great progress! emoticon

    I had to put my rings away when I was gesturing emphatically to my husband and my engagement ring went sailing across the room!

    It is obvious that you have developed the mindset for success. You want ths weight loss more than you want the temporary satisfaction a particular food can offer, you are seeing and feeling the benefits. I just have to throw this question out there but please don't take it as criticism of the choice you are making. I have nothing but respect for you as I recognize myself in your blogs and I know you have done the research so here goes... WLS is a tool, a very effective tool, but it is only those who have mastered the emotional side of things and are willing to adapt to a new lifestyle that will keep the weight off in the end. I follow your blogs so I know you are working hard at both these things and losing weight! Have you considered continuing on this path without the surgery? I just ask because I was struggling with the same decision and elected not to go through with the surgery. There are several people at my weight loss center that started as pre-surgery patients doing a VLCD diet to fulfill the insurance requirement and after the designated time period was up, they were doing so well with their weight loss that they elected not to have surgery. I am just curious if you have considered this possibility and what your thought are as I know you are not taking this decision lightly.

    Keep up the good work! I am pulling for you! emoticon
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    So fantastic!
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    You are the Queen of Butterflies! HUGS!
    2320 days ago
    How awesome! Make sure to wait till you are close to your goal weight before having them done. You can always wear them on a chain around your neck emoticon
    2320 days ago
    What a great victory, Rose!
    2320 days ago
  • LINJO66
    These non-scale victories (I call them NSVs) are just as important indicators of your progress!
    Keep up the great work Rose!! You are inspiring!
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    emoticon You are on your way!
    2320 days ago
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