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2 years sparking....

Friday, January 13, 2012

Ok, for some of you this is Friday the 13th emoticon emoticon emoticon
Well I've never let stuff like that bother me. I believe your future is already laid out. God knows everything and yes we all have a little bad luck from time to time but it's just another season and GOD will see us through that too. emoticon

Well for me today is my 2nd year Sparkiversary! emoticon emoticon
My first year was great, I was excited, learning so much, LOVING the site and all the people.
I went from 238lbs. to 190lbs. I learned a lot and finally started to love myself which was great.

This year I haven't done a lot on the scale but I have STARTED not only to love myself but to actually enjoy my life. I LIVE my life not just for my family and friends, which I discovered that I was doing. I have gained weight but in gaining the weight I realized why. I was doing for everyone and not dealing with what I NEEDED! So while shutting myself off from my wonderful spark friends and family that truly care I gained about 10 pounds and was starting to get ashamed of myself but you know what..."I'm NOT ASHAMED!" Yes I gained some weight! Yes I put my needs off AGAIN but I have come to a whole new place in my journey and I'm getting myself back on track. Even though the emoticon went up, my clothes didn't. Yes some of the stuff I was wearing is Not as flattering now with the extra pounds but hey I'm still in them and I've seen worse emoticon I gained some weight, it's NOT the end of the world and definitely NOT the end of my journey.

So going into year 3, I would really love to learn more about myself. More about balance. Get into some size 10's and LOVE to get into single digits. But I am NOT going to focus on the scale and let it bring me down. It will not define me! I will get to my goal one of these years and if it's this year Trust me YOU WILL ALL KNOW! emoticon But for now, I AM HAPPY, I AM PROUD of myself. I could have GAVE UP but I didn't. I have had my SEASON and with the grace of GOD he has seen me through another one. It's still not over and we are still dealing with a few issues but MY GOD can handle anything!
Just a little reminder of the last 2 years...

It was very hard to find me in a picture, then I realized I needed help. I can not do this on my own.

and who likes those random pics. where you get caught in the background.

I'm in the black and white....

That's me in the red shirt w/the black jacket.
2 years ago I would have been ready to CRY! emoticon but I didn't. I even thought these are NOT too bad. emoticon I don't see rolls poking out emoticon Oh and BTW these are from this Christmas when I gained the 10+ pounds.

This was taken in March of 2011 after a 5k, yes my hair is a mess but I'm wearing a Large and the one 2 years before I was wearing a 2X and of course I can't find a pic. emoticon
I should have been proud that I walked it but I didn't care enough to get a picture. Never Again!

Like my status said a few days ago....Let's DO this!

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  • no profile photo CD1370153
    3133 days ago
    Happy Sparkiversary!! I am so proud of you Becky and you should be proud of yourself!! You have such a healthy attitude about your goals and how you're going to get there. We all have setbacks but the important thing is we get back up and start over. I have a feeling 2012 is going to be your year. You deserve it!! emoticon
    3134 days ago
    Becky reading this this morning was the perfect pick-me-up, after a night of not enough sleep. emoticon You are doing great! You're doing it the right way, one day at a time, and with each new day, you're getting stronger. You inspire me and remind me that I need to appreciate life, thank God for my blessing, and know that with God's help, self love, and self respect, and the support of my SP friends, (and family) all things are possible.
    Happy Sparkversary! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3134 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8095520
    I emoticon you.
    Beautiful blog Becky, well written.
    And that picture is so powerful.

    P.s I'm sparking from my phone so I can't really type what I want, but just know that I'm very proud of you for owning who you are.
    3135 days ago
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