My Mona Lisa Smile
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
I feel an excitement growing inside. I am allowing my excitement to bubble around internally, and smiling the Mona Lisa smile about this thing called losing weight and maintaining it.
“I cannot lose the 150 lbs. I just can’t do this.” Truthfully that is what has been lurking in my head for the entire time I have been on SparkPeople. Sure I tried breaking it down, 3 sets of 50, now that’s doable, right? But I just kept stuffing back the thought “I“ was an exception, and “I” couldn’t do this. Oh, of course I see others who say, “If I can lose the weight, you can too.” I wanted to believe, but DID NOT.
So why is my body bubbling?
Well, I have been reading my newest mantra,
MAKE THE COMMITMENT TO CHANGE.
I was a competitive athlete in college on scholarship. Were there days that I didn’t want to get up and go to swim practice? You betcha, but staying in warm snuggly bed was not an option. It was just not a consideration.
Now days people around me say, “I don’t feel like exercising.” While I may look at them like they have two heads, it’s like, so what, it doesn’t matter how you feel, you just do it for health & fitness.
Then I had to take a HARD look at me and my eating choices. DUH! Because sure I love exercising, and I don’t really care how I feel, I just exercise.
What about applying MAKE THE COMMITMENT TO CHANGE to my eating?!! The thot that eating could be seen in the EXACT same light really smacked me upside da head.
WHAT does this look like in my daily life?
Lately, sure I am NOT perfect. I have started settling in with the notion that while 100% eating healthy is my goal, I won’t consider myself a failure if I only reach 75-80%. Before I thot, ugh, a 75% is like a C, why even try for C’s?
While I like an A more even than a C, with a C I am still heading in the right direction. And HERE IT IS FOLKS, I WILL GET THERE! with C’s. So oops, that gremlin running around my head saying, nope you can’t, will be banished. I know with more C’s than A’s it will take me longer, but I will reach my destination Woot!
So I will take the baby steps to healthier living and just maybe I will have more A’s than C’s further down the road. My feet (and even more important) my head is on the path and whether is is one year or five I will be meeting you at goal!