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Stressed and Depressed

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Dear Spark Family,
It has been awhile, since I was last active on SparkPeople. So much has happened in my life over the past year and a half. My other mother (mom of my ex-bestfriend) recently passed away last year (Oct 18) from ovarian cancer. I am still not coping with the her passing, she was an awesome God fearing woman, who taught me a lot. I cannot thank her enough for teaching me how to deal with negative situations and turning them into positive ones. She was the glue that held everything together, even when her daughter and I would fight, she would call us into the room together to try and patch things up and have us talk it out, then hug one another. Unfortunately, that teaching did not work this time, between her daughter and I. As a woman of God, I could no longer deal with the negativity that her daughter emitted. She was not a positive person and it took me 8 long years to figure this out. She was not the person that I thought she was, we had a one-sided friendship. It was always what she wanted...never what I wanted. Can you believe that she waited 2 whole weeks to let me know that her mom had passed. Wow, what kind of bestfriend does that, especially when you helped take care of her mother during her illness...long nights at the hospital, cleaning her, etc etc. Ever since her mother's funeral, last year....we have not spoken. In all honesty, I am actually not upset by that either, I made a promise to myself before God, to only surround myself with POSITIVE people and to remove all negative people and things. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of her mother. I miss her everyday, I just hope that she isn't mad at me for not trying to mend what has been broken for some time now. emoticon. Mama Valda, I miss and love you so very much, I know that God is taking good care of you. Until we meet again...Love your other daughter, Iris emoticon
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    I am sorry for your loss. True caring people are so hard to find and to hang on to. Don't rush the grief hang in there and cry it is very healing. I'll pray for you during this difficult time. emoticon
    3210 days ago
    Sorry about your loss. Your page background saves it best and the words of the Serenity Pray should continue to encourage you and keep you focus on what is best for you and your life. emoticon
    3214 days ago
    Tears for you...I just don't know what to say.... I understand about leaving negative people out of your life... but the not letting you know for 2 weeks, I'm sure would really hurt emoticon
    3214 days ago
    Thank you so much ladies!
    3214 days ago
    Sorry for your loss
    3214 days ago
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    I am so sorry for all that you have been going through. God bless you! emoticon
    3214 days ago
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