I didn't get away with it
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Thanks to everyone for the comments yesterday. The scale was not kind to me this morning. Over the course of the week I've hopped on the doom device a couple of times to check progress and on Thur I was happy as I'd lost 8lbs, which made me think 'hurrah, I'll meet my 10lb goal for this week easily, I still have 4 days to go!' so off I trot, a happy bunny.
However, this kind of thinking is what led to my only losing 4lbs this week (and thus putting ON 4).
'I am going to reach that goal so easily that some bread and butter can't hurt.'
'I am going to reach it so easily that one biscuit can't hurt.'
'I am going to reach that goal so easily that some chocolate cake, frozen cookie dough and chocolate buttons won't do too much damage.'
And so here we are at half the loss I had already made when I still had four days to go in the week!
So, I'm thinking that I need to step on the scale once a week. I'm fairly sure that if I hadn't already thought I'd achieved my aim for the week I wouldn't have gone so far off the reservation.
I'm also fairly pissed off with myself for being so weak and bascially being chocolate's bitch. I need to have more self belief and keep the reason why I'm doing this in my head! I am 17lbs heavier than this time last year! I have negated all the progress I made.
The worst part? I can see the change in my face and I do not like it! I like the thinner face girl in the other pictures damnit! I want her back.
So I know what I need to do but I can already see reasons why I might have a problem this week. One of them? I'm going on a date on Thur and he's taking me to my favourite cocktail place (apparently it's one of his too, huzzah!) but I am not supposed to drink on this plan and I sure as hell am not supposed to drink sugary, colour addititive cocktails which will make my weight shoot through the roof! But it's a first date, I don't want to seem like the prissy, awkward girl who refuses to relax and have a good time.
Hope everyone is having a better week than me :)