paying the price?
Sunday, January 08, 2012
i've been doing good work out wise and for the most part did well eating too. i messed up a bit last night due to going into work at the last minute and went out for lunch with the family so that got me a bit off track but honestly didn't do too much damage.
i know i'm doing good and i'm being really healthy but i'm mentally having trouble. i feel like i'm not making any progress and to be honest i haven't seen any change in weight, body fat, or measurements in months. i really don't know what's going on or why. i eat healthy and work out. i log all my intakes/outtakes on sparkpeople and what i am doing should result in weight loss but why hasn't it? i would still work out the same even if i never lost another pound but even so, this just isn't right that i'm not getting anywhere. it makes no sense. even after revamping my meal plan (several times) and work outs (i know i've kept running in there but i have changed the work outs within running and switched around other things, kick boxing yoga, swimming ect...) there is still no difference. i'm putting in all this careful hard work with the intentions to lose but nothing ever happens. i have no intentions of giving up, but what gives?
i must be slipping up enough someplace- but the question is where... i don't see any possibilities. i know i go out once in awhile but even still i do make sure to stay healthy and usually stay right around weight loss intakes- at worst i hit an intake that should maintain (doesn't happen often though). maybe years of trying to get my body to let go of weight has caught up with me- the only possibility left is that i guess i'm paying the price for my past history with my eating disordered habits and exercise bulimia...
nevertheless, I will keep doing what i do, and keep looking for things to tweak, i'm sure eventually i will find that one thing i'm missing and will finally see my goals. it has to happen one way or another right? part of me is ashamed to post this- i'd hate for anyone to think less or me or to think i don't work hard enough.
i was pretty much at my goal- knee injury happened- i gained 10 pounds and now i can't get anywhere no matter how hard i try. the worst thing is i don't feel fit enough to be a fitness instructor- and that makes it so hard to deal with this no progress zone...