01/08 - Improvements
Sunday, January 08, 2012
I'm seeing improvement.
My energy is up - I've been getting in at minimum 20 minutes of hard/high intensity exercise a day. Starting tomorrow I can get back to using the treadmill - kids are back to school. I swear they wait til I'm on the treadmill in the middle of my workout and they have to start bugging - even after being told I'm going down to run, leave me alone. But now break is over and they will be back and I can get on with it.
My asthma - is much better. I'm not having to take my inhaler during my workouts. I take it once after my warm up if my airway feels tight, but I don't need it anymore after that like I use to. Also, maybe it's due to the lack of severe cold winter (it's been beautiful!) but I'm able to spend more time outside playing with the dogs. I'm enjoying the weather and sun which goes along way towards my attitude.
My attitude - I'm pushing myself to do better then the day before. I may do the same workout but I push myself to put more effort in, go faster/get a better time (running), do even one more rep. I feel better than I have in a long time - mentally and physically. I've had my final blow up at the hubby and kids about "what's not being done around here". I have gotten tired of asking for help, I don't get it. I have blow ups and get a day's worth of results. But after this last blow up, and hearing "I didn't know, I didn't hear you", I have made a family task list. We all have jobs for the week outlined and we must initial when we do them. There is even one for cooking dinner. I don't mind cooking dinner when I'm home but I work 3:30-7:15 usually. I serve dinner and do dishes, clean/set tables at a senior's home, I don't want to come home and have to make dinner or do dishes. The kids need to learn to cook and hubby needs to stop being so lazy (he's usually off when I work). The kids who are the worst for using every clean dish in the house will now be doing dishes unless I decide to use the dishwasher - mainly the days I work they will do dishes. Each week the jobs will change so that it is kept fair. I can't take care of the house, work (it's only part-time), run a business, do all the volunteer things I do/want to do, spend fun time with the family and take care of me without their help.
My attitude overall is: I'm getting back my self-confidence, self-esteem and pride in myself. I care about what I wear, how I look - I haven't done that in well a long time. I feel good, I actually am starting to feel sexy again. I can see the difference in my body when I look in the mirror naked. I don't cringe anymore, I look and say things like "wow, I can see that again" I laugh at myself for that one or "jeez, look how much of that is gone" or "is turning to muscle".
My food: still a bit of struggle/fight to make the right choices. But I have seen how poor choices over the last few weeks - a lot of pre-packaged, ready made foods can make weight jump back on. Two weeks ago I weighed in at 229, then crappy food, high sodium, barely any exercise, low to no water and with in a week I was back up to 235, some days the scale read 240. This week I made more conscious decisions on food, watching my sodium and working on and kicking up the water intake and getting in at least 20 minutes of high intensity exercise. Today, my weigh in day, I'm down to 227 so I will take that as a 2 lb loss, not the 8 lb loss the scale shows.
Earlier this week, I restarted the kettlebell workouts. I love this workout. It may not seem to be high intensity but by the end of 25 minutes I'm sweating, breathing heavy and definitely feel/know I worked out. I ended up pulling muscles in both inner thighs. Not complaining, it's a "problem" area. Not sure if it was from the workout or from the squats I was doing at work that caused the issue. So I have been turbo jamming it almost everyday since so that I still workout but give those muscles a bit of a break.
The goal for this week - keep up on the exercise, drink more water, make better and more from scratch food choices, have fun, and enjoy the changes I'm seeing, not just what the scale is telling me.