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Bodyrock 30 day challenge- Day 5!

Saturday, January 07, 2012

Today I had some catching up to do... so I did 4 & 5. I kinda felt like sh!t for the first part of the day... here is why:

I'm making a decided effort to cut out my glass of wine on weeknights. There's really no reason for it and it's just a dumb habit that is doing me no favors. So starting on Monday January 2nd I just... stopped. Felt no different really, but I felt good that I was doing it! The Friday night , Mr. and I went out to dinner and I had a glass with dinner and one when we got back home, and GUESS WHAT. I woke up late with a headache this morning and felt like crap for a good part of the day. What?! Anyway. I finally got my butt up and did days 4 and 5 since I didn't do them yesterday. SO SO glad that I did it. Something that has been bothering me this past holiday season though...

My eating has really got to even out. I used to battle with restrictive eating and it was pretty intense... like, an actual eating disorder for about 7 years. For the past year and a half I've reeaaaalllly gained some perspective and a sense of normalcy, but when it comes to holiday or party situations, my brain is like... "uh-oh no way no way no way" and I'm back into that old pattern of restrictive eating, and then when I get home or return to a normal schedule, my body is so starved that I get this "fu*k it" mentality where I'll just eat however much of whatever I want just to.... I don't know... show myself what's up? I really have no idea, but I do know that it just throws me entirely off track and thwarts all of my hard work when I don't listen to what my body wants and nourish myself with good, whole foods. Today was a really good day on that front! and it's those good days that fill me with a sense that I CAN do this on a normal day to day basis.

Tomorrow is an active rest day, so I will clean clean clean this apartment since we have been traveling on the weekends for 3 straight months! aaaaand I will do either yoga or pilates, then grocery shop for good clean foods, and then batch cook for the coming week. Hope you all are having a wonderful weekend!
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  • ELISELOVE1
    emoticon on the eating
    3448 days ago
  • ERINBEAR1876
    It's interesting what our minds can do when it comes to eating, especially when we have an eating disorder. I don't have the same thing you have...mine is a binge eating disorder, but the same will happen, just the opposite, I will binge, and then restrict my eating to make up for the binge. It's great that you are learning more and more about yourself and what works for you, and that you can do this, that you can eat normally.

    That is interesting about the wine, and how it affected you after not having a glass for a while!

    Take care ~
    3448 days ago
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