What have I done??? Where did I go???

Thursday, January 05, 2012

emoticon The time has come - time to face the truth and realize what I have done. No time or reason to blame myself, it will only piss me off even more.

I have never been this heavy before and I can't believe what a different person I have became because of it. I am sluggish, grouchy and just not who I really am anymore. Sore and achey, I feel 80 quite often.

Thankful that I feel a change happening - dare I say it a 'spark' starting to happen. I don't want to live like a frumpy old fat lady that I have became. I want to be the crazy and insane--sometimes on the edge that I used to be...mainly I want to be healthy and happy!

Food isn't a bff - used it to comfort myself and use it pass time...just drugs for the body not any type of fuel. It must stop - I would never treat my animals or vehicle like this, why do I think it is ok to treat myself this way?

I can, I will and I finally want to make a change - a lot of changes....

Have many more thoughts, will post again.

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  • NESSY759
    you can do this you just need to Believe that you are worth the effort and you definatley are worth doing this for. Your so right the most vaulable things in life we will misuse and abuse . We only get one shot at life so and for many of us struggling with weight its a do or die situation. I feel your determination and i believe you will do great things.
    2293 days ago
    I heart you ladies even more....
    I think something clicked today and my boxing gloves are out! Woohoo.......
    2297 days ago
    I heart you ladies even more....
    I think something clicked today and my boxing gloves are out! Woohoo.......
    2297 days ago
    Good to see you back Janet emoticon
    New year new beginnings....I too am at my heaviest ever but girl this time I am as determined as ever.
    We can and we will do it!!
    2297 days ago
    Janet, you can do it and you will.
    Please don't forget to come for support.
    We often put up links to read of people that inspire us.
    You have joined us at a great time all of us are ready to rock so you can join right in and be a loser!

    Great blog and so nice to see you again. It has been too long.

    Hugs Mary
    2298 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/6/2012 12:30:10 AM
  • SWEETPEA1949
    Janet what a great are so determined and i really believe you will do it...You go girl...Hugsssssssssssssss emoticon emoticon
    2298 days ago
    I 'heart' you ladies!! So glad to find you again!! How long has it been?

    I have determination and thankfully I am very very stubborn.....
    2298 days ago
    oh love your blog so full of enthusiasm and determination
    I am with you - I believe you will do this for you!
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    2298 days ago

    good to see you back in the game Janet.
    2298 days ago
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