The Year of Changes

Thursday, January 05, 2012

2012 is going to be a year of huge life changes for me and my family. I'm 11 weeks away from being done with my BA, I will hopefully be re-joining the workforce, my MIL is moving here from California in 8 months, and the most exciting for me-I might actually get to have babies of my very own.

A week ago I quit smoking. I didn't just quit smoking, I went cold turkey. No nicotine gum, lozenges, patches, pills, wellbutrin, chantix, none of it. I ran out of cigarettes, didn't buy anymore, and hid in my room with fresh juice, green tea, cabbage soup and water for a couple days. This is the longest I've been without some form of nicotine in probably 12 years. I feel like hell. I'm tired. My body hates me. I want to eat bags of dark chocolate chips and double bacon cheeseburgers. I'm not eating those things, but I want to, badly. I was exercising the first few days of this journey, but now that the insomnia and night terrors have resumed, I feel even worse, and I just want to sleep.

Quitting smoking was step one in preparing for the changes that are coming this year. Step two is losing 50 pounds, or as much as possible. I do not want to start a pregnancy off by being 50 pounds over weight. Not even a little bit. But I'm so exhausted and craptastic feeling from not smoking that I just want to eat, and lay in bed watching My Fair Wedding and What Not to Wear. I need to get off my booty and move! It sucks not having an exercise buddy. It sucks being the only one in the house exercising, even if I'm not the only one who needs to.

I started school today and I'm hoping by this time next week I can have a realistic routine. Waking up at 5 to exercise is not feasible, not just because I don't like waking up that early, but because the 3 men who live here take showers between 6:00 and 7:30am (Two of them are teenagers so their showers take FOREVER, leaving no hot water). When I get home from school, there's dinner to be made, orders to be barked, cleaning to be done, etc.

So I ask, how do you all fit it in? Do you go to a gym? Do you work out at home? Do you make all your meals on Sunday? Do you exercise daily? Every other day? I'm begging for suggestions! I gotta get this figured out so that when I start working, I can have a routine down for that too.

Here's to change!

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    When i was in grad school, I found a woman in my class who would run with me after class (11pm). It worked. We got in some exercise, became friends, got healthier and smarter to boot:) Good luck!
    3338 days ago
    GCB - you have no idea how proud of you I am!!! My heart is BURSTING with joy and pride for you and I love you oh so very much!!!!!! I'm complimenting you a lot because I don't have any advice. With me being at home with the kids, now we just turn on the wii and go at it - but I know you can't do that with school starting back. I guess I'll just have to remind you to not get discouraged if you try a routine and it backfires. Give yourself some grace and some room for trial and error. And I love you!!!! xoxoxoxoxox
    3339 days ago
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