too many calories
Monday, January 02, 2012
on my first day. Quitting pot is still one bridge too far, but I managed to stick to one small joint after dinner. It was already quite a struggle during the day, but as long as I can postpone my first joint until after dinner, I'm happy. I know that once I've had that first joint, nothing else gets done that day, not even recreational stuff, like reading a book, or watching a movie. In short: it's turning me into a zombie.
Even without the joint, starting stuff is not easy. Yep, that includes stuff I enjoy, again like reading a book or watching a movie. I'm having a hard time choosing what movie or what book and as a result end up doing nothing. Btw I believe that that is the real message behind 'Sophie's Choice'. The make her choose between her son and her daughter. (who gets to live) If she doesn't choose, they will kill both. If you don't make a choice you end up losing both options.
Yesterday I tried on of those self-hypnosis programs. This one was about strengthening your will power. I think they just might work.