So here's to a new year...
Saturday, December 31, 2011
2011 has been, well, interesting. There have been a lot of things to adjust to this year in all aspects of my life. My bff moved from MI to AZ, my tutoring business blossomed more than I ever imagined, Brendan and I are adjusting to longevity, along with all of the other things life threw at me this year.
Normally I let this stuff get to me...and I did this year. I often blame myself for things that happen, assuming that I could have done something differently or could have prevented something from happening (hindsight bias at its best). But honestly, things happened the way they did because, well, they did. And there is nothing I can do to change any of it. Nor can I take on the stress and responsibility of thinking that I can.
This year, I am not going to try to control my life. I am also going to stop hating myself (another blog about that soon...), which will in turn positively affect my attitude about others. Change should not only happen when the new year starts, but the new year a good excuse to execute the change that is needed.
Next year is going to bring more change and adjustments too...Brendan is graduating, we are going to start looking for houses, my business, etc. But I am not going to let the inconsistency and unpredictability of life dictate and control my attitude about myself. It is time to go back to the "old" me. I don't like what I have become and I need to face the reasons why this has happened. This year is about reconnecting with myself and getting to know the true me.
Happy New Year!!!