It's my pity party and I'll cry if I want to...then get back to business.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Its been awhile since I was active on Spark. I sign SP praises to everyone struggling and even though who are not. Yet when I find myself lying face down on my bed in only nylons and a bra with tears in my eyes and a husband telling me he thinks I am beautiful, I sit and have a pity party for myself instead of jumping back in the saddle and kicking @ss with Spark again.
Thank you, my dear husband, for listening to me pity myself and feel so down about myself. Even though you don't know how I am feeling or that changing the way I think isn't as easy for me as it may be for him, whatever you did or didn't do really helped. Just 4 1/2 hours ago I was face down crying on my bed but not right now. Right now, I just signed up for the Pittsburgh Marathon 5K, my first time running this particular 5K, and I am so stoked. A friend at work is challenging me to break the 30 minute mark on this race and I so want to do it. He challenged me this same thing this past September in a 5K I ran and I missed it by a mere 14 seconds. I was so proud of myself and couldn't wait to tell him. The same is still true. I have 124 days to get ready.
I am also hoping that within those 124 days that I will finally be at my goal weight of 150 lbs. (or dare I say 140?). I have been working toward the 150 mark for almost 2 years and I am tired of working toward it. I want to maintain now! I know I can do that because I've been maintaining the weight I am at for months now! Some may call it a plateau, I call it a maintenance break! LOL I am working at shedding these last 15-25 pounds and I am about to get serious!
I set myself my own version of fast track goals for this week:
1. Walk to work every day. (meaning, don't have hubs drive you in)
2. Pack my lunch every day.
3. Exercise at least 15 minutes every day (and the walk to work doesn't count).
No pop this week.
If I meet my 3 goals for the week, I will reward myself with a fitness magazine. My sister gifted me a subscription to Shape magazine this past year and I find most of it very inspiring. I would like to reward myself with more inspiration.
If I meet my 3 goals AND my bonus goal, I will reward myself with a fitness jump rope I saw at Five Below the other day or a hula hoop. So far, I am 2 for 2!
I am hoping that this is the last leg of my weight loss journey. I want to be done. I am willing to put in the work to get the job done and that's just want I am going to do.