We are not alone!
Friday, December 16, 2011
Coming back to life today after a cookie binge night. It was the second night in a row that I polished off a (small, thank goodness) box of special cookies. Now they are gone, AND I'M SO GLAD. I finished the night with a capful of Pepto Bismol, which is the only stuff that finally calms down my stomach. Of course, I cried out to the Lord, "WHY?" I couldn't trace my actions back to any event which triggered me.
This morning when I awoke, it hit me: A very close friend with food AND co-dependency addictions, drew me into her web of neediness and negativity. I never suspected what had happened because I got caught up in a day long cycle of prayer and ministering to her multiplicity of crisis events. How could I see the forest for the trees? I was needy and so available to help, and be needed. At this time of year I have been going out to lunch with groups of friends whom I love and cherish. But they are not my family; my deceased daughter and my estranged granddaughter, or my mother and siblings hundreds of miles away, or my nearby daughter and grandson whom I hardly ever see.
So I was lonely and vulnerable as so many of us are this time of year. I needed to be positive and grateful for the blessings of friends and family that I HAVE, but I resorted to negative thinking without even realizing I was having the "Poor me's." Boo Hoo!
I wanted to share this story because so many of us fall into "moods" this time of year, and we turn to our (always) best friend, FOOD. Even if we manage to remain strong the rest of the year, somehow the season throws us a curve ball at the end of the year. so stay strong, spark friends. We are here for each other, sometimes in ways that our physically present or absent friends and family aren't. I know I'll frequently be turning to these paqes and blogs in the days and weeks ahead. Keep in mind that HE is an ever present friend, and just as HE answered my prayer this morning, I know the Lord will make a way for you. God bless you my dear friends. I feel so much better now. Ready for what comes my way. I AM NOT ALONE, WE ARE NOT ALONE.